The best. You were the best.

We went to your house today. It was the first time we had gone there since you were gone. This place doesn't feel like a home anymore. It feels different. Who knew one day we would come here, and you would be gone. You were not there to give me a hug or wave to me from the window. I wish I knew you wouldn't be here forever. I wish I was smart enough to tell you all the things I didn't.&nb...

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I miss you.

I miss you. I wear your clothes. I use your gold-colored cutting scissors. I want to call you and tell you so many things. Everything in my room reminds me of you; pieces you helped me sew, patterns you made from kitchen paper towels, and even a bra you made me more than twenty years ago. I wish I knew you wouldn't be here forever.&nb...

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Write.

Write. Write for yourself. Write to "snap out" of it. White for your future self. Write for your dreams. You better write.&nb...

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I wish I could tell you I love you. One more time.

I sent a package today. I package you would want me to send. A pair of magnet "boots" for a special girl who wished to have them. I know you would be happy to hear that story. I know you would have said, "Don't say I've taught you" and I would answer with "You are a good grandma" and "Talk to you tomorro...

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Baby steps.

I'm trying to keep making steps forward. It's not my usual steps, it's baby steps but it's better than no steps. I miss Grandma. Sewing without you is hard but life without you is even harder.&nb...

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Navigate life without you.

We went to see your mom today. I wish I had taken you there more than once. I know you would have loved to but would never ask. There are so many things I'm sorry about. So many things I didn't say, so many tips and tricks I didn't learn yet. I just hope I will know how to navigate life without you.&nb...

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God hands.

We are coming to see you tomorrow. But you will not wait for me on the balcony and will not make me the food I love most. I will not show you the new stuff I have made on my phone, because you are not here anymore. You are in god hands now Grandma, and I will miss you forever.&nb...

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