Today is the day. My hobby is not only a
hobby, it is officially a business and I am very proud of myself. Because no
matter how scary it is and how hard it will be- I am on it. Even if no one
believes in me but me- That is definitely enough.
Saturday, February 29, 2020
It is O.K to not be O.K.
Today I am not O.K and that is O.K. It is
O.K to not be O.K. But every time I feel that way, I promise myself tomorrow
will be better. And most of the time it works. Something great happens.
Happiness
Happiness. I can be in the most beautiful
spot, eating the most delicious meal, wear something that makes me feel good-
but ruin the experience with thoughts running through my head. Hi lady.
Slow down. No need to ruin the now for the later. We can never know what it
turns out to be anyway.
Pure happiness
“ A moment of pure happiness a day is a
lot”. I wrote that in one of my Pinterest pins, someone saved it and I choked
up. Someone saved my thought and I loved it. Dear friend, I wish you a lot of
pure happiness moments. Thank for investing your time in my page. Thank you for
supporting my dream. Thank you.
Friday, February 28, 2020
How can I tell you without being rude?
We don’t need to kiss on a daily basis. This is what I needed to
tell them a long time ago but I just couldn’t. They are nice! but seriously, do
you kiss your coworker on a daily basis? You know, I saw you yesterday and I
will probably see you again tomorrow. It is me, not you but how can I tell you
without being rude?
No matter what you will think of me, I need to tell you because- I
don’t like it.
“A world of only good”
“A world of only good”. A former work
colleague mentioned she always says that when she goes to bed. No overthinking,
no energy invested- just good. I don’t know what I think about it- but I know I
always remember it when I go to bed.
Overthinking
Just breathe. Yesterday at the gym I was
sitting, thinking in between sessions about all the things I need to do
afterwards. I had this blank look on my face. You could tell I was overthinking.
It made me nervous, anxious and not present. Then, for a minute, I thought of
all the things I have already done - and it immediately made me feel better. I
should do it more often.
Nice gesture I will likely always remember
We can never know how powerful our small
gestures are to the people in front of us. You already know I am a big fan of
free parking spots. And so, yesterday I found my free parking spot but I had no
chance of doing it without someone’s help. And then she came, smiled the whole
time through guiding me. I thanked her and said “What a great start for my
birthday”. Thank you nice lady, for a nice gesture I will likely always
remember.
Happy birthday to ME
Today is my birthday. I am still sleeping in my childhood room,
still the one everyone calls when there is a problem but, I am happy. I am
doing what I always wanted. And so, 2020 will forever be the year of pursuing
dreams.
Happy birthday to me.
Thursday, February 27, 2020
Now it’s the time
I am scared. Now it’s the time. No more
waiting, no more excuses, now it is the time to start selling- but I am scared.
Up until now it was me and my sawing machine, designing in my head and make it!
My space, my schedule, my way but now, I need to be out there. Put myself and
my work to be criticized, to be shown with my name on it, taking responsibility
and manage my way through it. And even though I am scared- I should do it
anyway.
“Where did you come from and Where are you going in life?”
Open space people tend to ask a lot of
questions. You can’t make a coffee without exchanging words with the others
sharing the space with you. And so, first thing in the morning I get to see a
new guy. I can barely open your eyes but he has a lot of questions for me.
“Where did you come from and Where are you going in life?”. Maaaan, I don’t
even know what I want to eat for lunch. And that’s O.K.
Long hair don’t care
Long hair don’t care. I have a long brown hair and I use to cut it a little bit every now and then. I have never colored my hair and I always wanted to. But I always have excuses to way not. Lose a little pounds so it will look better, do it when white hair shows up, do it when you will meet someone who would like it. No. I am doing it. For me. Wish me luck.
I have been here before
I have been here before. Wanting
something and doing whatever it takes. I was 19 and I wanted to be a commander
in the army. It was my goal, my dream and I had no one saying “You can do
it”. I used to visual myself in that role until I got it. And now I am
here again. picturing. Working 12 hours a day for over 6 months towards another
dream.
No money, no feedback, no time off – but progress
I am happy. I have made a huge progress
this year. I kept my word and worked toward my belief. No money, no feedback,
no time off – but progress. That is what makes me so happy.
Tuesday, February 25, 2020
Free parking
Free parking is my thing. I just love it.
I don’t know if it is because I am cheap or because others are paying while I
just got away with it. And so I found one this morning. I was happy and
thankful as usual and then he came. Saying this spot is perfect for him. “maybe
you can get back here at 15:00 and give me that parking spot” because “I was
right behind you”. That is the point- You were right behind me.
Day by day
Don’t get me twisted. I am eating my own
head off daily. I am constantly thinking, reading, double booking, writing,
listening, learning. And so this week I am practicing stop overthinking. I have
printed a 30 day schedule and that is it. Thinking only 30 days ahead. Not
overthinking about my age, my work, my life, what I don’t have and what I do.
No. just taking it day by day- Now Let’s see how much it lasts.
Today is A happy day
I have mentioned to her I no longer sit with friends for coffee or
going to the mall. “Don’t you think it is extreme?” She replied while making her
something to eat in the kitchen. I don’t. I am happy. Who knows what will
happen tomorrow- But today is A happy day.
Just breathe
Don’t be too tough on yourself. I keep reminding myself. Be nice. Even though you didn’t go to the gym today, even if you didn’t do
something productive or even if you didn’t do anything today. Everything is ok.
Just breathe.
“You look like a Party girl”
“You look like a Party girl” said one of the open-space guys.
Another one next to him confirmed “Yes, she really does look like one”.
Clearly, I am not.
No parties, no alcohol, not even smelling desserts. But why did it
bothered me so much?! I mean, I don’t know these guys so why do I even care
what they think of me.
Priceless
And now I am here. Open space for
artists. And let me Tell you - easy? Not really. From the most loud girl I have
turned into the most quiet. From an hour launch breaks to none. From 8 hours of
sleep to ZERO but hey, Driving here every morning knowing there is no other
place a rather be- is priceless.
“How do You say thank you for the best year of your life?”
“How do You say thank
you for the best year of your life?” That is what I wrote to my favorite
teacher. It was I miracle happened to me by a woman who Posted on Facebook “If
you want to learn how to make and sell clothes- this is the best one”. The next
day I was in. It ended 6 months ago. A year of pure happiness. No Hi-tech
coffee, no special facilities only human assets - and I loved every minute of
it.
At that moment I knew- I need to leave
At that moment I knew-
I need to leave. It was two years ago, I was sitting in a conference room
at one of the most powerful companies in the world. I remember I had 24
hours to prepare something- but I did it and I did it well. At that moment I knew-
I am not going to take their offer. I am going to leave.
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