I am trying not to cheat in my daily routine. I am not going physically to work but that is not a proper excuse. Even if I will be locked inside my room for a while- I will figure it out. Unfortunately, reality hits you in the face a few times a day. I hear the horror stories around the world, where the word “stop”, “years” “crisis” is everywhere- and if that is not overwhelming, I don’t know what is. Maybe it’s ok to live in a bubble for a while, and making progress sounds like a perfect medicine to me.
Wednesday, September 30, 2020
Tuesday, September 29, 2020
Lucky us.
“The internet will be your mentor,” I told myself 6 months ago, stepping out from a bad meeting. I started learning from my idols who became my heroes from afar. Listening, reflecting, writing, implementing, and I can feel it- in my thoughts, my routine, my productivity. There is so much to learn in this world- and it's only a click away. Lucky us.
Monday, September 28, 2020
kind heart
I am writing her a birthday card. No matter how many mind-blowing titles I will give her, she deserves so much more. There are no words to describe her. She is my baby sister, 14 years younger than me and a adore her. Her strong, focused character, her ambitious personality, and kind heart. I wish I could protect her forever, make her stay "small" and fearless, but life doesn’t work that way- I can just hope they will, because she really deserves it.
Sunday, September 27, 2020
Fear
I became a computer freak, Who would have thought?. I have never been a computer fan, not at a young student nor as a high-tech company employee. I used to stick to what was expected of me- and that was it. Now, I am all about computers. Even writing this sentence makes me laugh. Things have changed, I have changed. I guess fear was a big part of it, but I have been working on it and you could tell.
Saturday, September 26, 2020
No question
When I know there are so many small, boring, technical tasks- I just can’t get myself to sit down at the table. While looking for excuses why I don't have to sit down, I know if not today, it's going to wait for me till tomorrow- so why not do it today? I set down and accomplished all of my tasks for today. Tomorrow I will have another story, hoping sitting down will not be a question.
Friday, September 25, 2020
Expectations
“Keep in mind, have low expectations out of life" he said, and I can’t get it out of my mind. Dear friend, I will never have low expectations out of life or myself. LIFE now is beyond my wildest dreams- So I guess it is up to me. Make sure you look at the world through a student glasses. Always.
Thursday, September 24, 2020
Don’t get infected.
“Breath, it’s the corona year" they say. What does it mean? I keep thinking. Does it mean you have an approval to slow down? A perfect excuse to postpone your progress? No matter how, no matter what, I will keep on pushing. No comparison or excuses are needed. We already know how it works in “excuses” land- Don’t get infected.
Wednesday, September 23, 2020
All you need is a will
“Someday” was today. We had a 3d printer at work for a year and every time I saw it, I was curious. But "someday" is usually never. We just "talked" about it. Today, I took it out of the closet, cleaned it, and two program downloads later- It worked. No "talking" is needed. You can learn anything these days. All you need is a will.
Tuesday, September 22, 2020
Do it all over again tomorrow
Sometimes I can't believe this is my life. knowing tomorrow, I will learn something new, test my limits, improve and grow my mental and professional capabilities. I will fail too and try again, as I did this past year. Sometimes I forget life wasn’t always like that. Thinking how lucky I am to go to bed knowing I will do it all over again tomorrow.
Monday, September 21, 2020
The future.
Sometimes those “small” thoughts hunt you. It can be a certain date, a certain feeling, a picture- and the emotions will follow. You are caught. Maybe we can choose a different path, after all, it belongs to the past. A past we can’t change, but focusing on the “big” thoughts. The future.
Sunday, September 20, 2020
“Enjoying” the other things
Being home is hard for me. I need my morning routine, my schedule. I got used to the never-ending list of tasks and painful legs. To the consistent problem-solving mode and uncertainty. Now the hard part is “enjoying” the other things. Watching a movie, relaxing, daydreaming. Maybe that is exactly why I should do it more often.
Saturday, September 19, 2020
Make sure you don’t waste it
The streets are empty. Restrictions and roles are everywhere. But the question is: Will you let it stop you?. Will this be the year you worked on “neutral” mode or will you be driven enough to find different solutions in a changing world. You will not get to live this year again, make sure you don’t waste it. Note to self.
Friday, September 18, 2020
It's a character
Round 2 of lockdown and I am home. Home with a long list of things I need to do, books I need to read, and problems I need to solve. I guess it's a character. Even if sometimes I wish I could be the person who chill and relax, put his over-thinker machine to a rest- I not there yet. Maybe one day.
Thursday, September 17, 2020
Pleased.
Be flexible. This is something I am working on. I am a noncompromising, stubborn person whose second name should be “over thinker” but I am trying. In the meantime I am digesting better mistakes, picking up those have fabrics like an animal, a comedian to the ladies at the factory and even though I am in bed right now, barely feeling my legs, my head and heart are pleased. You got this.
Wednesday, September 16, 2020
Proud of you
She’s the youngest of four of us. She is the gift we got from our parents and she never ceases to amaze us. Life wasn’t easy for us and yet, she didn’t let it affect her dreams, determination, and ambitious personality. Today she celebrated a big milestone in the army. We couldn't be there, witnessing this moment of acknowledgment but we will forever salute you. Proud of you baby sister. Forever.
Tuesday, September 15, 2020
I will figure it out.
“Are you the same person as you were a year ago?” I don’t think I am. I mean, I have the same hair color, and I wear the same clothing style to work. I sit at the same table every day, park my car at the same streets but I am not the same person. I have learned how to overcome failure fast, how to embrace fear, how to mute outside noises, and most of all, I have learned that no matter what- I will figure it out.
Monday, September 14, 2020
Don't you forget it
Sometimes I wonder if this “happy” mood is me trying to justify the call to leave my job, was the right one. Because even if we did the wrong desition, will we be brave enough to admit it?. In my case, all you need is a glimpse of me driving to and from work. The singing, the smiling, the energy, the excitement, the chills, the shiny eyes. This is definitely what the right desition looks like. Don't you forget it.
Sunday, September 13, 2020
The things that truly matter.
Resits. resumes .contracks. proof. I am always looking for it. As if it's the only way for us to digest information. I will through the name of the company I used to work for in a confrontation call because it “sounds better”. I will tell a story about my master's degree so you wouldn't think I am "just" a designer. We all know it doesn’t mean anything but we are still doing it daily. We shouldn't let what we think sounds better lead us, instead let's focus on the things that truly matter. Happiness.
Saturday, September 12, 2020
Brave enough
"Who knew I will end up doing the things I love the most?" sometimes I think about it and smile. I was always in charge of goodbye toasts at work but never felt I will be brave enough to say goodbye. I had friends I loved, got good feedback for my work, and enjoyed all the benefits that come with working for a big high tech company. Now I am here, next to me is a guy who is doing accessories, someone throwing clay in the air, making high-level dishes, and a carpenter doing a colorful extraordinary benches. I guess dreams do come true. And YOU are brave enough.
Friday, September 11, 2020
My kind of story
I met him a few years ago. In one of the courses I took while working in a hi-tech company. He was young, talented, all dressed up in a skirt he designed- and I knew he was something special. A star. Now everyone knows what I knew years ago and I get emotional. Few years ago he sat next to me in class with a dream- and now he is living it. My kind of story.
Thursday, September 10, 2020
Maybe it's for you
Will you call to say “happy birthday” to a friend you love? will you be the first to send a message during the holidays? Will you let kindness and care lead you the way?. What if they never do it for you? will you still be doing it?. The question is, Why are you really doing it? maybe it's for you.
Wednesday, September 9, 2020
It came after a lot of errors
I used to hear that piano jam after I finished school, when the library became my second home. I went there every day, exploring things. I started making bags and moved after a while to clothing. Through applying for different jobs, I discovered a whole world of tech in clothing- and now I am here. It didn’t come to me in a dream, it came after a lot of errors. Don’t you forget it.
Tuesday, September 8, 2020
Temporary Emotions
I can’t do it all by myself. And that is not the point. The point is finding the best people who are experts in their own field and walk together towards the vision. Because if each and every one of us will do a good job, We are on the right track. But where do I find them? “Don't Make a Permanent Decision Based on Temporary Emotions” -It is not easy, but I am learning.
Monday, September 7, 2020
Move on.
Maybe you need to do it in order to grow? Maybe you need it to think better? maybe you need it in order to feel the urge to “jump”?. Even If you feel like turning your back to the people you love the most. Now it's the time. No need to be sorry, nor feel like you need a “right” answer to the question "why"? You already have the answer. Move on.
Sunday, September 6, 2020
Put the tired aside
“You need to put the tired aside”. Everything is planned. My schedule, my tasks, my goals. But there are things you can’t control. Like a sleepless night. You get up in the morning, feeing it is still yesterday. You can always try to trick him, pretending you had a good night sleep- put the "tired" aside. Today it worked.
Saturday, September 5, 2020
They are not welcome here anymore
Saturday morning. I am at the office and a smile is all over my face. This whole 4-floor building is my kingdom and you could tell I was pleased. A long list of tasks is in front of me and the “self-talk” began. “You don’t have to do them all today”, “Maybe I will skip the gym today”, “You should wait for it to be straighten”. But the answer is- No. No waiting, no postponing, no excuses, and no stress is needed. You always get it all done anyway, so get rid of those useless noises at the beginning of the day. They are not welcome here anymore.
Friday, September 4, 2020
No one stops.
I got up today, knowing I am going to work, no matter what. One bad day doesn’t mean I am going to stop and wait until I will know I am fine. Healthy. No one stops. No matter what happens in life. In the meantime, you will find me here, doing what I love the most- hoping I will be here, doing it forever.
Thursday, September 3, 2020
Happily ever after.
Suddenly everything seems different. You are not feeling well and waiting in line for your doctor appointment. In an unfamiliar environment, a foreign in a different culture city, feeling weak. We do not look alike, we have different beliefs, different mindset. Except our body, working the same way. No spare parts, Just hope. Hope to get older with our loved ones, hope to make our dreams come true. Hope to live happily ever after.
Wednesday, September 2, 2020
You may be surprised
She sent me a picture of a handwritten note I wrote her years ago and I got emotional. Every birthday, every special event, or just a random occasion at work– you could trust me to show up with a note. I left years ago, and seeing those notes, these memories made me feel good. When you move on to your next chapter in life, it doesn’t mean you can’t take your friends and memories along with you. You may be surprised.
Tuesday, September 1, 2020
That will make you smile.
I am ready to see it, with my own eyes. I am not thinking about the money or the advertisement. I am not thinking about the appearance of my online store or my target audience. All I want is to see it and be satisfied. To know in my heart, I am selling you a high-quality garment. Something you have never seen before, that will make you feel confident, sassy, and fabulous. That will make you smile.
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