2021 ~ Not Perfect Perfect Blog

Friday, December 31, 2021

Another year? another challenge.

What a year. I am sitting here, at the same table, drinking the same coffee and smiling. Not long ago putting myself “out there” was my biggest challenge. And I did it, successfully. Another year? Take another challenge. Remember, You can do it all.

Good friends.

Good friends will be happy for you. Happy to watch you succussed, to believe in you when you “don’t”. They will tell you to keep on going and put a smile on your face. You don’t need many. But if you have those kinds of friends, you won.

Somewhere new.

Different place, different mindset. You don’t need much to think differently. To get different ideas, different thoughts, different insights. You just need to take the bus to somewhere new.

No more "hiding"

New year, new skills. You have a deadline now. You had your “hiding” period, and now is the "perfect" time to start shipping your work. Remember, shipping your work will make it “your job", nothing else.

As if you didn't even start yet.

You will get there. To the place, you can breathe. The place where you have your own space, where you can buy any fabric you wish for. You will have your own big table, mannequin with legs, and laser cut machine. Don't worry. Dream big and act as if you didn't even start yet.

unnoticed.

You will forget things. Things that are second nature to you. Like writing this blog, Something I have been doing for more than 700 days in a row. Yesterday I missed it. I trust my brain, but I need to acknowledge sometimes he takes days off, unnoticed.

It works.

It works. You put in the hours to learn a new skill, to sharpen your craft- And it works. It may take a while. Most of the time it feels like you are walking on the same square. But it adds up and good things have to follow.

Bigger picture

Doing the work with ease is so much better. You get to enjoy it. But the thing is life doesn’t always work that way. On those hard days try looking at the bigger picture- You get to do what you love and there is nothing better than that.

You can always try your best.

You can be mad. You can make it the life “before” and “after” or you can move on. Like everything else, it’s only up to you. Unfortunately, life isn't supposed to be easy, but you can always do your best.

No money? Then it’s just a hobby

No money? Then it’s just a hobby. You better start thinking about how to make a living out of it. Likes, shares, and attention are valuable but figuring out how to make money out of it- should be on your mind as well.

"When life gets me down I create even more"

It’s hard to smile when your heart is broken. But it’s the only way out. As my dear friend H’ said “I am a creator, It saves me. When life gets me down I create even more".

Mediocre?

Too much equal noting. Don’t get confused. You can’t do it all. Don’t start to learn another program, don’t push yourself o “take” another platform. Focus. It doesn’t worth it if it’s mediocre.

“What if”

Take a deep breath. You are o.k. You will be o.k. Bad things happened, wipe your tears and move on. “What if” is not going to help you anyway. Now is the perfect time to move on.

Immune system

There isn’t any immune system for it. For making mistakes. Some will hurt forever and some will need some time. Can you see with your own eyes? Are you smart enough to think? To make something with your own hands? Than you have everything.

This too shall pass

It will take time. But this too shall pass. You will tell yourself stories, trying to find comfort in the great things in life. And remember, this too shall pass.

Hope.

You look at the same things but they all look different to you. You look the same but when you look in the mirror- you don't recognize yourself. You see what life looked like a week ago and you just can't believe it. Hoping for a miracle.

Move on.

There is no other option but to move on. It will probably never go away. That feeling of being defeated. Making quick calls that cost you big time. Next time I will know better? No. There will be no next time.

A miracle.

You are trying to put a smile on your face but you are paralyzed. You feel like you can’t see anything even if your eyes are wide open. I need a miracle. A miracle.

One day you're up and the next day your down.

Losing money hurts. Especially if it’s not a small amount if someone stole it from you. I am trying to see with my own eyes- but I can't see anything. It hurts. It paralyzes you. Reminding you life is a roller coaster. One day you're up and the next day your down.

Not one day. Today.

Not one day. Today. No “what the future holds” but what the day will bring. I know I haven’t even started. I know I am still running away from the real “deal” but one day I will get there. Knowing I loved every minute of it.

Your life, Your story, your call.

Do you. Do the best you have. Your good enough is good enough. Don't let the numbers confuse you. Your life, Your story, your call. All the rest is an extra- Don't you ever forget it.

You got this!

I am tired. My legs hurt but my heart is full. Full of excitement and joy, so I don't get to feel the "tired". I knew I could do it, I dreamt about it, and now it's my reality. Those are tears of happiness. Keep going. You got this C.

Happy.

Tired, Yes. Confused? Sometimes. Scared? Always. But I have never been happier. I already proved myself- If there is a will, there is a way.

You just need to listen.

You just need to listen. Listen to the right people. And there are so many of them who brought me here. With their words. And to you, my heroes from afar, I hope you are looking outside your window, watching so many of us evolve because of you.

A head game.

It’s all a game. A head game. And you are the main character in it. For life. I used to care about how people perceived me. What will they say if they saw me carrying fabric down the street, or running towards the bus with my big "sewing" bag? Now it’s diffrernt. I am diffrernt. Now I know, the only thing that matters- is what I have inside my head.

Don’t cry.

Don’t cry. Just don’t. You should be laughing. You deserve it. You worked so hard, and now you get to see it all on your smartphone. It's not only the likes and kind messages, it's your promise to yourself. You never thought you would overcome. And you did. Please, Don’t listen to anyone but Yourself. And if you do, it's on you.

Cheer yourself.

You can text yourself. You can give yourself a round of applause. You wish you had someone to tell "Look! I made this". But it’s not going to take my happiness away. Maybe one day I will have someone to share it with. But until then, I will cheer myself.

Patience got me here.

It’s lonely but it’s worth it. It’s hard but I wouldn’t want it any other way. I have been sitting here for two years, and only now I get to see what I have done. Patience got me here. Hoping it will never go away.

Compass

Happy. I say that word to myself at least 6 times a day, out loud. As my goal, if I am not "feeling" it. As an encouragement when I succeeded. As a confirmation when I feel grateful. It's my compass.

It took me a while. But I'm here now.

"What is up with you?". I used to get stressed when people asked that question. It always felt like the wrong answer. But now it's diffrernt. Not because I "did it" but because I know the skills. And have the mindset. It took me a while. But I'm here now.

Life is too short.

Life is too short. Too short to be resentful, too short to be angry. Too short for diving deep into the past. Too short. Focus on a better tomorrow. Period.

You have all the reasons to smile.

It’s something new. And it takes time. Going back is not an option. You already made that call. Breath, try to adjust, and focus on the things that truly matter. There is a solution to your problem- You have all the reasons to smile.

The real game

That is the real game. Pushing forward even though you don’t see the results. Smiling even though you don’t feel like it. Being laser focus is the only way to get there. Don’t stop.

Taking chances.

You already did it. You already said "yes", and it was already done. Regrting it, doing "pros" and "cons" is not going to help you. Think about tomorrow. What's done is done. When you said "yes" you were willing to take that chance.

It will just keep the fear here.

You can do it. You can ship your work. You will be stressed at first. You will make mistakes. But you will figure it out as you go. The “extra day” is not going to change anything. It will just keep the fear here.

You deserve to smile.

Who will you share it with? Who will truly be happy about your success? I am holding my phone and texting myself. Don’t get me wrong, those are tears of happiness. Tears of hard work who brought me here. You deserve to smile. It's all YOU.

You will figure it out as you go

Writing comes easy to me but saying it out loud in my own voice is a whole different story. I keep trying to write what I want to tell you, but it doesn’t feel right. Breath, it's your first step, you will figure it out as you go.

You can’t half-ass it.

I am out there, but not really. Even though being under the radar is perfect for me, I know it wouldn’t less forever if I want it to succeed. You can’t half-ass it. Do it exactly as you see it in your dreams.

Maybe it’s easier to let the same music play

Maybe it’s easier to let the same music play. You are used to it. You don’t like it? do something about it. Pulling out the blaming finger is not going to help you. The only one who can help you- is yourself.

Tell them it's worth it.

Maybe it’s your obligation. Maybe that is your true calling. To speak up. To show how it really feels like. How lonely it is to follow your dreams. How sacrifice really looks like. Day after day, without knowing anything but your goal “to get better”. Talk to one. Tell them it's worth it.

Price being paid

Remember those days. The days you were choked up, from tears running through your face. That is the price being paid. Price for pursuing your dreams. You knew all along it came with a price tag. Breath and move on, it only makes you stronger.

You don’t need a “good job” from others- You need it from yourself.

If you block it all. Your judgment of others, the perception of others towards you, you being a small fraction in life- You will find your way. If you travel the world in your thoughts, if you can see it happening to you- it will. You don’t need a “good job” from others- You need it from yourself.

Hope.

I hope I am wrong. I hope you will be standing on your feet again, little man. How can it be? You were standing in front of red light at 20:00 and at 20:01 you are on the floor, between life and death. When we get up in morning, we don't think about it, we don't think about how lucky we are to come back home.

“bad b*”

If you are out there, having a bad day but still keep pushing. If you know how to block those outside noises. If you smile at the world even if you cry inside then you won. You are the “bad b*” everyone wants to be. If you master those things then you got this. You got everything.

Get up.

Don’t use the snooze button. Don’t ask yourself any questions you already know the answers to. There is no need for pros or cons. Get up. Tired is not a proper answer. Dreams should be treated with respect.

You always made that call.

I am looking at my phone and I can't believe it’s me. It was one of my biggest mission. Far away from the real me not so long ago. Now I am looking at her, over my phone and I can't believe it. Day after day, drip by drip. It adds up. Because the hard part is behind you. You always made that call.

Grateful.

Not “why me”? not “how come?”, no petty. Get yourself out of it by yourself. Happiness is not a checklist. You are already living the dream. Be grateful. Breath. It will soon be a whole different story.

Pay attention.

“What are you doing?”. I ask myself that question a few times a day, every day. Doing doesn’t mean working. Even if it “feels” like you are. Doing the work relates to all the things you are trying to avoid. Pay attention.

Doing the same but better.

Was it luck or hard work? Was it timing or persistence? Was it “one big decision” or the story you tell yourself on a daily basis?. The thing is, you will never know the answer. And the thing is, it doesn’t really matter. The big question is, will you be here tomorrow, doing the same but better?.

Work.

They don’t know how long it takes or how much work goes into every stitch, every video. They don’t know I give up television a long time ago as well as “hanging” out. I work. Maybe one day it will all be different, but now that is all I do.

Be nice.

Be nice. Be nice even if there are not. Be nice for yourself, not only for others. Be nice because who wants to waste time reflecting on your behavior. Be nice because that is how we should be.

Risky

Doing them both at the same time is tricky. It’s putting them both at risk. That is why people tell you to put your "focus only on one thing" at least until you see results. But I am here now. Starting them both at the same time. knowing I am willing to take that risk, and get back up if I fall.

The only way to overcome.

You will always have something important to do. Something to fix, something we better off without. Starting despite all the above is what you need. It will be scary, you will get nervous- but that is the only way to overcome.

Stop worrying, continue working.

I have them, I love them, I execute them. And it makes me so happy. It's my brain, it's my home. It's me. And it's not going anywhere. Stop worrying, continue working.

Do it.

By doing it you overcome the fear. And the sooner the better. Thinking about it is not “doing it" but just a waste of time and energy. Make a room for the next thing. It might not be that “big of a deal” anyway.

Mute all the loud noises

I am trying to push myself. Even though I made huge progress, I am still not there yet, playing “in the game”. I will be there one day, I can feel it but now I am here, trying to mute all the loud noises around me.

It adds up.

You will not sit here forever. You will not live like this forever. Because if you put in the work, you will get better. It’s math. In a world where nothing is promised, this I know for sure. It adds up. Guaranteed.

Tell them the story.

Tell them the story the way it is. Tell them real life is not what they see on the screen. Don’t be a hypocrite. Don’t give any advice you don’t follow yourself. Don't get caught in what’s working, get caught on leading with kindness.

Now you got yourself a reason to smile.

It’s not the bed of your dreams, nor the room you always wanted. It’s not the shower you feel like taking nor the environment you feel like living in. But that is what I have today. Tomorrow may bring a different story. Now you got yourself a reason to smile.

Take that risk.

Take that risk. Take that step and never look back. You already made that choice. Now it’s all on you to step forward even if it’s hard, even if you don’t feel like it, even if you still can’t believe you are actually doing it. keep going. No matter what, you should keep going.

You can smile, you deserve it.

I wish I had someone to share my good news with, someone to call and say “look, I made this”. But until then- I have myself. I have myself to encourage, myself to support. Remember, those "butterflies" days are because you worked on the days butterflies were not even close. You can smile, you deserve it.

It's not enough.

It's not enough. Even if you loved it, even if it made you smile I would always feel I can do it even better. Be better. Your "good enough" is comforting, it's encouraging but I know the best of me is yet to come.

kindness

It saw it and it made me smile even though I had tears in my eyes. An act of kindness. Not something extraordinary. No specific requirements. Helping with no words. Without asking anything in return. A world you want to live in.

Status

The status is hunting them. Lucky me I am not there anymore. I don’t care what title you will give me, if you are proud of me or not- Even if you are family. I am not going to bother trying to tell you either. I know who I am. And that’s what matters the most.

Happy.

Maybe it’s genetics, maybe it's all about doing what you never thought you were capable of. Maybe it’s the actual pursuit of the things that truly matter. All I know is if you'll ask me if I am happy, I will tell you I am.

Being scared

You said the word scared a few times during this call. But why did you? Remember that the reason you got this far, is because you went towards the fear and not the other way around. Being scared is not a bad thing. Breath.

keep ongoing

Hang in there. This is not your forever, it’s just your beginning. The dirty floor and the shared table are not your destiny. One day, you will have it exactly as you imagined even if sometimes it looks so far away. Your medicine for these days, as you already know- is to keep ongoing.

The best I can.

You are scared. You don’t know how you will be able to do it all. You're already “all over” and you haven’t even started. I know I will not be able to do it all, but one thing I can promise you, I will do my best. Always.

You already knows how it works

You already know how it works. Someone did a bad job, you had to pay for it- And you flip. Your whole day is a mess now. You are trying to breathe, to upgrade the self-talk but you are mad. You already know yourself, when money is on the table, you are losing it- But don’t. That's not the point. Moving on- Is.

I live for those moments.

There's always the "insisting phase" when you start something new. You start optimistic, you had a few failed tries, you are trying to convince yourself you should wait for an email, a friend, a suggestion but keep trying on your own hoping you can do it by yourself- and succeed. I live for those moments.

Never forget

You are far away, in another zip code, another state. You are sending messages of support and encouragement and I can’t stop smiling. One word of kindness can change my energy, my mood, my spirit. Promise you I will never forget it, never forget you. Lucky me.

I will be O.K.

It happens every once in a while. I get lost in my own head. Lost in past evens, lost in doubt. I keep reminding myself those days are the real test, showing you how much you really want it. And I smile. A smile, because I know I will be O.K.

Friendship

I went there, even though I didn't want to. I put a smile on my face even though I didn’t feel like smiling. Friendship, after all, isn't only when you “feel like it”- It’s being there especially when you don’t. Remember, It’s not always about you.

This too shall pass

Nothing happened but your mood is not like you want it to be. It’s “eating” you and you don’t know even why. It's making you upset because your thoughts follow it. You are trying to “fix" it but you don’t know how. Let it be, carry on, and as you already know -This too shall pass.

Friendship

She is getting married tomorrow, and I will be there looking at her with tears in my eyes. I will be there by myself, older with unclear occupation- but I will be there- because friendship is not only when you feel comfortable, but maybe the other way around.

Don’t get confused

Don’t get confused lady. The numbers don’t mean anything. Your mood and energy should not be defined by it. You should work when the numbers are low and you should work when they are high. We already know how this game works. Keep getting better is the only thing you need to think about.

Hope as a fuel

Sometimes I wonder how am I so optimistic. So sure I will get to do this for the rest of my life. I mean, I haven’t even started, and yet I know I will succeed. I know I will find a way. Remembering days like today- where hope is fuel to keep on going.

A great answer

No matter what I do, I always feel I could have done better. No matter how many things I checked off my list, I always feel I could add some more. It’s a good thing, it brought me here. But maybe saying “you did well today” is also a great answer.

What about today?

Working in a quiet environment. That is all I need. Those days bring the best of me to myself and to the people around me. I don't get to have many of them but when they come, I am shining. Learning how to shine when it's a full house- Is what I need to learn. How to make my current reality, as pleasant as possible. One day it will all change, but what about today?.

Soon.

One day I will look back and wonder why I didn't start sooner. Why did I let fear control me. One day he will sit next to you, smiling for no reason. One day space will not be an issue- but others will. Breath.

Trapped

Trapped. Trapped in this "scared mindset" and the unfair tune is not going to help you. You are the only one you can count on. The only one who can cheer yourself from the heart. I never thought differently and yet I am looking for answers. Move on.

One day.

One day I will miss it. Being one-woman show. Hanging out with me, myself, and I. One day I will miss my small table around the corner and the big window in front of it. One day, I will have my own place but it will always be the place where it all started.

Doubt

It happens every single day when I get up in the morning. The doubt is hunting me. The unknown is sitting on my chest and it feels heavy. Lucky me it's there for a short period of time because the schedule makes it go away. Maybe one day it will disappear but until then I can handle it.

You better do it.

You better do it. And you better start now. There is no perfect recipe for this. You will make mistakes, you will learn and you will get up and keep going. Waiting is not going to get you to the “other side”. Starting will.

From an ant to a ninja

I went back there, to the streets I know so well. I used to work there. Thinking I was an ant back then, and now I am a ninja. Nothing changed with my appearance, behavior, or bank account but with what I have inside my head. The mindset, the skills, the relentless personality. Lucky me.

Stubborn

Being stubborn is not something new. This is just me wanting to do it all by myself, not relying on anyone else. It's a smart move but not always. Please ask yourself if you are not running away from the important stuff. Trying is always more relaxing than doing the work that truly matters.

Being human

Physical pain. Unexpected. And you can’t think about anything except for wishing it to go away. The senesce “the show must go on” is real- But so is being human.

Good side of life

It’s a FOMO of another kind. I am learning a new program, and all I can think about is the next one or the one I could learn instead. Be present. There will always be too many options to choose from. Choose, commit and be the best at it. You are already on the good side of life.

Friends.

I sat there with a pencil in my hand. Trying to write down names of real friends. Unfortunately, the paper was pretty empty. It’s not supposed to be like that. We need it. We should have it. You can’t be inside your head all the time.

It's all on you.

There is no one to blame for those tears. No one to blame for those feelings either. It's all on you. No one owes you anything. Could they help you? Of course. Could it make your life easier? Probably. But we already know "fair" doesn't exist. Don't wait for anyone to get you out of it. Do it yourself.

That feeling is remarkable.

If you scroll down you could read how scared I was. Scared of putting myself out there. Making content for social media. Today I crossed half a million likes and I got emotional. Not because the numbers are high but because I kept my promise to myself. And that feeling is remarkable.

There are only 24 hours in a day. Unfortunately.

You will have things you wished you could do, things you wish you had time to learn, to explore. Good ideas you know will work but will probably never come to life. There are only 24 hours in a day. Unfortunately.

"Raw"

Everything you feel was pulled out from a drawer. We are thinking X about Y because we saw, heard, read about it. We rarely get things “raw”. Who knows if "raw" even exists. You can’t avoid those drawers but knowing they exist is a big step forward.

Be happy now.

Don’t wait. Don’t wait to be happy. Be happy now. No big announcement, event, or money needs to occur for you to be happy. That bag you're carrying on your shoulders will always be there anyway. Sometimes heavier than before. Don’t hang your happiness on something. Be happy now.

You need a different story

You need a different story. A sad story is not going to help you. But a story about overcoming your fears and following your dreams will. Don’t let those “peanuts” disrupt your mindset flow. You didn't come this far- for nothing.

Lesson

Maybe there is a lesson to learn from it. But I keep asking “why that big of a lesson”?. Couldn’t it be a small lesson that would have taught me the same?. I guess we don’t get to chose them. Our lessons. But at least make it count.

You haven’t even started yet.

They say your saddest days will come when you will be "out there". Under a critique eye. I feel like hearing people say that, makes me experience it in advance. After all, "they all feel burnout at some point ". No lady, don’t look for a reason to hide- You haven’t even started yet.

Sending those messages to myself

“Good job” or “I am proud of you”. Sometimes I feel like I need to hear it from someone. Someone I love. Someone who understands the sacrifice, the hard work, and the daily routine. One day, I know- You will be there. Sending my heart emoji in the middle of the day telling me “I already made it” but until then- I am sending those messages to myself. I deserve it.

Excuses

You already know those tears don’t mean anything. They are just an excuse to slow down. To tell yourself “you can do the rest tomorrow”. Remember who made you cry, acknowledge it’s your fault for crying over it and move on. We don’t have time for excuses anyway.

Smart.

Smart. It was never my title. No one has ever said it to me as a child, and I never said it to myself either. I had the best grades growing up and yet I never thought I was smart. Now I know smart has nothing to do with my degrees, my profession, or my status- But has a lot to do with all the rest.

Lost.

Lost. It was all in one big bag. Everything. Every design I have ever made in the past 6 months. It hurts so much I can't even think clearly. It’s a wasting of time, energy, and tears. Things I could spare myself if I was more organized and focused. Now let's hope it's only a lesson.

Story about LOVE

I Need to thank you for giving me a glimpse of what I want. You asked about love and I had no answers. I guess I don’t really know what love is. After all, I am running away from it. I said loneliness, family, children but I didn’t say love. One day, I will have a beautiful story to tell. A story about love.

Happy.

You can get exciting when you did well. You can laugh without thinking you are getting "too excited". You can be happy without explaining to yourself why you need to stay in your lane. Do them both. Be happy, enjoy the moment and keep on working. You deserve it.

The only answer that matters is yours.

I am looking for someone to tell me my instincts were right. But it’s like waiting for an email, a miracle, or someone to sign a contract saying it’s going to succeed. It's the easy way. Waiting. It doesn’t matter whose answer are you looking for, what's his profession or expertise the only answer that matters is yours.

"For what?"

For what? When you're working, investing your time and effort on your ideas, do you ask yourself “for what”?. When you build your business, why are you doing it for? When you are here now, failing, can you see why are you doing it anyway? What is your “for what?”.

Investing in a "better" You.

You don’t have to but maybe you should. It's not really "investing your money in walls". It’s investing your money in better thinking, higher productivity, and your mental health. Those things are more valuable than anything. It's investing in a "better" You. Do it.

It is all inside your head.

25 hours straight with no food, drink, or voices from the outside world. Only your own. It was a range of all kinds of feelings and emotions. It was sad and happy. Exciting and scary, comfort and anger. In a matter of seconds, I could switch from one to another. Proving- It is all inside your head.

You.

You have all the important things. A clear vision, a growth mindset, learning capability, and relentless enthusiasm. Don’t let anything come your way. Remember, the only one who gets to decide- Is you.

Just don't.

Don’t do another bodysuit. Don’t invest your time in another "viral" leggings or make another logo draft. Enough. You are running. There will always be an important email you are waiting for, a solution you haven’t figured out yet, and a "wired" feeling. Don’t run. You have been running for a while now.

"Better" card

It's not a movie. It's real life. Most likely I will not find him on the streets on his way home from the gym. The possibilities are low, I only have 50 steps to my car every day. It's not like I have 5,000 steps. If I did, my chances were higher but still not guaranteed. I can't wait forever- choosing and committing is what's life is all about. There is always a chance you will miss a "better" card.

The "miracle"

Maybe it was the miracle you have been asking for. An example of what a meaningful conversation looks like. I can't tell you exactly what it was that made me feel this way. It might be the title, the skills nor the confidence- but it doesn’t matter. Now I know, it exists. An interaction that makes you feel in a "dream" when you are in reality.

"Real"

Maybe being Chely 2.0 for a while, will do you good. She's brave enough to do all the things you are too scared of. She knows it's not going to be easy, but she is willing to take that chance. Even if it's not "real", if you believe it- That's what counts.

Getting up again

You don't need to review it again, you don't need the packaging to match the color of the shirt nor to choose "the perfect" date for the opening. You "just" need to take a leap of faith. Mistakes will follow no matter how well prepared you were. Getting up again is what's this game is all about.

"Easy" was never been part of the equation anyway

How can you prevent that low segment in your carve? You can learn about other businesses, you can prepare a risk management portfolio, or imagine how you would feel and act when it happens- but none of these will prepare you for the actual moment. Don’t get too caught up in it. Just remember "easy" was never been part of the equation anyway.

Give it some time

Time. Give it some time. Next week it would all look and feel different. You got distracts, so what? You shed a few tears- Conglutination, I guess you are not a robot after all. Don't you know that's the fun part, knowing we can't predict what's next.

You can.

You can cry with no reason, you can take a break and daydream for a while, you can skip a few things from your "list" without being angry at yourself. Maybe great things will follow. Breath.

Happiness

It doesn’t happen every day, but when it does you would feel it in every part of your body. You can't predict it or guess how long it will last. But when it happens- You will get a sense of what pure happiness is all about.

Good for you.

You have learned. You have learned how to focus even though your hands are full, how to mute distracting thoughts, and mind your own business. Now you know what is the recipe for peace of mind. Good for you.

Listening can't hurt you

Listening can't hurt you. It's doesn’t mean you will change your mind. Maybe you will learn something new, get another perspective or even laugh but all the rest- is up to you.

"Feel like it"

If you "feel like it" or not. When you wake up, follow your list. Start with one step after another. No discussion. No questions to be answered. That is a good recipe for a good day. At least for me.

My new "noraml"

New room, new walls, new feelings. I left my old room without looking back, without any feelings. Wondering if it's normal. I entered my new room the same way, thinking who is the one to decide what's "normal" anyway.

"Out of the box"

Don’t run. No one promised it will be easy. There will always be things you are scared of. Those parts are the best parts. It means you are learning, it means you are changing, it means you are on your way there. To a great place called "out of the box".

Nothing else

Tell yourself a different story. A happy one. A peaceful one. One belongs to the person you are becoming. It's going to be a success story, nothing else.

Don’t you forget it

Social skills. It's not all about your talent, your ability to handle rough situations, and strong character. The ability to share, listen, create experiences with different people- It's a big part of this game. Don’t you forget it.

Just a memory

One day, when space will not be an issue you will remember those moments. Those moments when you had everything in your head but nothing in real life. When you felt rich in your imagination but poor in real life. One day, it will all be just a memory.

I hope it will never change.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever need a break or wish to disappear for a while. Leave questions with no answers and just be. For now, only thinking about it makes me scratch. Working is breathing for me and I hope it will never change.

Embarrassed of what?

Embarrassed of what? How long it took you to get here? Your status, your big ambitions? There is nothing to be embarrassed about. The only competition you have is the one you have with yourself.

I am going to figure it out.

I am going to figure it out. It might take a while. I may go through a ton of mistakes and expand my daily crying. But I am going to fight it out. I have done it so far, no reason why I couldn’t do it again.

Nighttime

It's nighttime. And I feel like I can start another day at work. Maybe that is how you feel when you enjoy what you are doing. Don’t get me wrong, not every day is like that. but the big picture is amazing. And I couldn’t be more thankful.

Choose right

You can be shy and still pose in front of a mirror, you can be an introvert and wear clothes that make you stand out. You can choose not to feel anything in situations "you should". You can be anything and everything. You are not your family, you are not your profession or degree. You are who you choose to be. Choose right.

Work for a better you.

From small to small. But one day it will be big. I promise you. One-day space will no be an issue. The small with turn big, your dreams will become reality. Those empty tears will be replaced with tears of joy. You just have to hang in there and do the things you always do- Work. Work for a better you.

Don’t run

You just need to sit down and breathe. Don’t run, don’t hide, and don’t look for something else you can do today. There will always be "other things". Do it. Do the things you are scared of the most. You will feel much better at the end of the day.

Start

I am in the middle. The middle of so many small things happening all at once. I am trying to stay calm. Telling myself, it can always be worse. Knowing the "right time" to start will never get here. All I can do is -Start. And the rest will follow.

Follow along

You are here. Not because you have a lot on your "to-do" list or you "felt like it". You are here because you are always here on Fridays. It makes it so much easier when you have already made that choice. Now, all you need is to follow along.

Life.

There is always something extra, that can flip things around. One minute you are sitting, trying to overcome an obstacle- The next minute something else came your way. Now the first one doesn’t seem that bad after all. Life.

"Keep going"

"Keep going" is my medicine. It's my healing process, my therapy. Whatever it is, I am already programmed to keep going. I am waiting for a miracle, but this is definitely a miracle to be thankful for.

Just the way you are.

You feel alone. You feel like you need help, a miracle. Even though you feel that way now, it doesn’t mean you are not strong, capable, and fabulous just the way you are.

Taking pictures

Taking pictures was never your thing. I know. But a lot long ago it was an impossible task. You will get over it. You already made a big step forward. It will probably never be your favorite thing but who says everything is supposed to be.

Regardless

You have already proven yourself you can do this. You don’t need to hope you will get up in the right mood or hope for a good night sleep. Regardless, you are on your way. Sometimes it's in the speed you like, sometimes it's not. But as long as you are on your way there- You will be OK.

Doing the same but better

The thing is it has nothing to do with your mood or an upcoming holiday break. Happiness comes from doing something you never thought you will be brave enough to do. When you keep going even though things get hard, from doing the same but better.

Questions

No extra questions, please. Especially when I can barely answer them myself. You can ask how am I, and how things are going but please don’t ask me to give you information I don't know myself. My plate is already full.

I already know the answer

I am worried about a lot of things but not about this path I chose. I wonder if the attention will translate into sales or it may take a while, I wonder how many steps it will take me until I get there but I am not wondering if it will. I already know the answer.

Looks complicated

Now it looks complicated. They all look like that at the beginning. But one day you will look at it as another "regular" task. And something else will be the "complicated" one. Breath. You have been here before.

Explore

It's scary, but it can be exciting. It's a change but it can be for the better. It can stay a mystery, or you could try and explore. The choice is in your hand. You just better do the right one.

You would love it

I am looking at it. And I smile. I smile because I know people are going to love it. Even though I am not sure how am I going to get there. To the place, where I ship my work. One thing I know- You will get the best of me.

Always with me.

My brain is not going to disappoint me. That is one thing I know for sure. He's going to deliver great ideas and push through when things get hard. The amazing part is no matter where I'll be, it's always with me. And with that- I can do anything.

No one is coming.

No one is coming. And if you are looking for someone to blame, you just picked the easy way out. Do you want a bigger room? A studio you can call "your own"?- Work for it. No one is going to give you all the things you want, even if they can. It's all on you. Keep going.

The sooner the better.

It's in your hands. Your mood, your feelings, your thoughts- It's all under your control. And if you are out there, carrying those feelings remember you are the only one who can flip them up. And the sooner the better.

Part of the journey

Don't worry, don't overthink it. You are just scared. But as you already know, the best thing you can do right now is to keep going. It will always be a part of this journey.

Choose wisely.

It's lonely, but you get to learn about yourself. You get to learn about your strength, your capabilities, and your strong character. It's you. And no one can take it away from you. Protect it at all costs. That space is yours only.

It's like magic

It's like magic. I am doing the work and it's all gone. The bad mood, the stressful thoughts, the unnecessary overthinking. It's my cure. Lucky me. As long as my hands are working, and my ideas keep floating- I will be alright.

Despite all the above

"It's not my day" gives you permission. Crying too. It gives you permission to "take it easy" today, to not be so hard on yourself. The only medicine there is to those kinds of days is to keep going. Despite all the above.

Day after day

Not too long ago it was all just a dream. A dream to have my own website, a dream to get up in the morning, knowing I get to go do what I love the most. Step by step, day after day, it adds up and you get to where you set your mind to.

Wake up

"You should have done it by yourself". I keep telling myself that sentence every single day. I know I need to learn how to trust people but I keep saying I would have done it better. Wake up, better is not always the answer.

Plenty of room

And now they are two. Two boxes filled with notes, letters, schedules, sketches, but mainly dreams. The rest is in a garbage bag. I may not have a room for every piece of paper but I have plenty of room inside my head. And that is the only thing I need.

"If only" is not going to help

Maybe it's good to be here now, to not have everything I need to make things easier. Maybe this is how great ideas are born. "If only" is not going to help you anyway, but a different mindset will.

Everything

My online territory. My brand. My dreams. We are building it and I just can't believe it. I am excited, I am happy and I am thankful I got this far. Pushing towards my dreams alongside the endless fear. I hope I will always remember those days I had nothing but felt like I have everything.

Mindset

I hope I will remember those two rules. The first one is I am not doing anything for money. And the other one is "when I am not happy- I am out". Happy doesn’t mean "quit when things are getting hard", happy means- You control your mindset.

Built-in behavior

I will be o.k. I know I will. No matter how anxious I am when I wake up in the morning, no matter how many mistakes I will make, I already know I always get back up. It's already a built-in behavior. Don’t worry too much, just keep working.

"Buying" part

She left me a message. Complementing my work. Asking "when it will be on the market"? and I choked up. I was so glad she loved it but the "buying" part made me anxious. Your ideas are not enough. The next step is not less important. And now is the perfect time to start.

Don’t ignore it, use it.

I am not going to let it control me. The feeling of being scared. The feeling who makes you anxious. I am going to welcome it. Acknowledge it and move forward. Every step forward will have that feeling anyway-Don’t ignore it, use it.

Happiness

The numbers are not supposed to make you happy. Happiness comes within yourself. Did you treat yourself with kindness today? Did you talk to yourself with ease? Did you surround yourself with people who bring you joy and make you laugh? Did you make another step forward? That is what happiness is all about.

Your superpower

Your superpower is your mood. It's the core of your well-being. A good mood brings good energy, optimistic thoughts, and great ideas. On the flip side, there is another option. An option that is up to you. Remember, either way, it's your call.

It's a lot

They are out there. Everywhere. Good people. Today they were two. One came back to his car, making sure I have enough space and the other made sure I will not hit the cars next to me. It's small, it's a minute or two but it's a lot. It's strangers helping strangers. It's doing something for someone else without getting anything in return.

Same notes, different self

Same notes, different self. I found a bunch of them, notes I wrote a couple of years ago. They have the same structure, same sketch characteristics, same accurate description. And I have them everywhere. They symbolize my progress, my determination, my strength- even if sometimes I feel lost.

One day

Can you see it? Can you see yourself shipping your work? Can you see someone enjoying your designs? I can't see it yet but I do see the bigger picture. The endless learning, the personal growth, the life I always wanted.

Learning

So you tried something new today and it didn’t work. Yes, you could probably pick something else from your list. Something that would make you feel better. But the thing is, it's not about the outcome. Did you learn something new today? If you did, then you had a good day today.

You will figure it out

It may seem like a lot to handle, too many steps ahead, too many decisions to make but one day, they will all be behind me and other things will be the "problem" that needs to be solved. Breath. You will figure it out.

Human connection

Human connection. That is what it is. That is the real deal. People. Your whole day can change because someone puts a smile on your face. A kind word, a nice gesture, a compliment. A second. That can change everything.

Be patient

Ideas put a smile on my face. Ideas give me hope and get me excited. When you're having a hard day, think about a day like today, when you couldn’t be more pleased with what your hand was sketching. A day like today is always around the corner. Be patient. You have it all inside your head.

Home.

When I'll ask you "Where is your house?" you will probably give me an address. But that is not your home. Your home is where your mindset is. Your house is not your destiny nor your future. Home is your ideas, your king thoughts, it's you.

The same

Every day is the same. I get up with the same feeling. Another "problem solving" day to experience. You get up with anxiety, sing it through on your way to work, and by the time you get there- You are a different person. Until tomorrow morning.

Work harder

It's always the same answer. Work harder. There is no other answer. To prevent those tears, the disappointments, the things you can't have. Work harder and the rest will follow. You already know how it works.

The bee inside you head

It's like when you are too cold or there is a bee flying in the room. Without it, things could have been perfect. But they are not. It makes you less focused and anxious. It's life. One day you feel like crying for no reason and the next you smile.

Just the way we imagined

I saw it coming. I knew one day it will happen and I will be prepared. Prepared with the right sentence and the right smile. Today was the day and I wasn't thinking about how did I do, I thought about it as a sign, about things we see before they are happening. Just the way we imagined.

You are not stuck

Sometimes it feels like I am stuck. Stuck with not many options to choose from. It may take a while until I'll start feeling different but until then, keep going. As long as you are creating, you are not stuck.

It doesn’t matter.

It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter if it looks like your life has been torn apart. If people around you break you to pieces with their words. What matters the most- is yours. Only yours. Your brain, your thoughts, your ideas, your mindset has nothing to do with other people, but you.

Are you happy?

Are you happy? Is it a "Yes" or "No" question? Is it a question you ask yourself occasionally or do you already know the answer? It has nothing to do with your story but has a lot to do with your mindset.

Their story

If they come to you with their story. With their happy news. You should smile. You should feel proud. Sharing their happiness with you means you did well. It means you made them feel good once before and now they trust you.

Creating

Creating. It takes all the pain away. It shifts your mind from bad thoughts, it makes your brain work harder, it gives curiosity lead the way. Create and breath, the rest will follow.

It hits you

It hits you, with no warning. You read something, you have a flashback, you feel it. All of a sudden you are locked. Locked on that thought, who brought you those feelings who made you sad. No matter what the story is, we all have it. The question is what are you going to do about it.

Take that leap

You are talented? Good for you. Do you have ideas? Perfect! Is it something you know people are going to buy? Amazing! But the question is are you brave enough to take that leap? Putting the money in inventory. Knowing people want to buy and you don’t have anything to sell yet- is a mistake. Take that leap already. You will be fine.

You can switch it

You can switch it. In a second. You can change it from "not in the mood" to "in the mood". From "not feeling well" to "I will do what I can". Choosing the latter will definitely make you feel better.

Inside my head

Sometimes I feel like I need the same table to do the work written on my list. I need the loud music on my morning drive to get calm before I get to work and use the same machine in order to do "good" work. But I don’t. No matter where I am, no matter what facilities are available to me- I have it all inside my head. And that is the only thing that matters.

Shine through

It's like we are two. Two different people living in this body. There is the one who is unstoppable, living in her own world and there is another one. Sensitive, shy, and scared. She is the one who pays attention to what society has to say. You can be both. You can cry and be resilient, be unstoppable and scared. You can feel them all and still shine through.

Being thankful I get to meet them

Kind people. I write about them a lot- And they show up. When they do, I can't help but wonder what a great world it is. A stranger, an angel was there last night, putting his time and effort on a side of the road, so I will be able to drive back home safely- And I couldn't sleep at night. Not wondering "why?", but being thankful I get to meet them.

Big picture

It's my second try. My hopes, dreams, and hard work are in that box. But there is no sign it is going to work out. Those days make you question. How many tries will you give something you believe in? I can't help but look at the bigger picture, and it's beautiful.

Dreams

We were all standing in line. Different ages, Different backgrounds, different paths. "Dreams" is a luxury word here. Most of them are surviving life. And yet, we all have them even if we don’t get to live them.

It is only up to you

Will you let a sentence destroy your day or will you move it aside, not letting it get through?. It doesn’t matter who said it or what was said. It is only up to you if you let it ruin your day.

Another step forward

No matter what I feel, I will be here. Sticking to my schedule for today. Not because I can't take a day off, but because it always makes me feel better. Knowing I made another step forward.

Think about a better tomorrow

When you feel sad, sad for no reason. Sad with no tears. Don’t question why. Don’t punish yourself. Don’t overthink it. Let it be And think about a better tomorrow.

Good people

Good people. When you meet them, you know. They will put a smile on your face. They will teach you. They will give you hope and encouragement without asking anything in return. They are out there, and when you meet them everything looks better.

Backstage

Backstage is my happy place. Next to my sewing machine and my big table. But now I am out there. And it feels different. There's no other way, I know. I have to keep going even if feels far from the "real" me. One day it will get easier and not far from the "real" you.

Thankful

I don’t know. I don’t know if it's going to work out. I don’t know if someone would actually wear my designs but one thing I know, It makes me so happy. And even though my legs are hurting, and I don't get enough sleep- I could be more thankful.

Now is always a good time to trust

Getting help means trusting someone else to do a good job. I always feel it won't be as good as my work but what if it will. What if it will be better?. How will you know without trying? Now is always a good time to trust.

One day

I don’t know how it feels like seeing someone wear my design on the street. What it feels like shipping your work. But I know one day I will, even if it seems far away sometimes.

I have them with me, my ideas.

I am here, by myself. But I am not alone. I have them with me, my ideas. You may call this building "work" but for me it's pleasure. You don’t need to see me smile to notice I am happy- you need to see my work.

For the days you win

You can pretend. Prtend you are not tierd. Pretend your body is just fine and you are energetic as you used to be. Pretend for the days you get tears of happiness, for the days you made a huge step forward. For the days you win.

One day I will get there

There are no signs it's going to work, but I am smiling. There are no guarantees but I am willing to take that risk anyway. Not only that, I am making plans for later. Call me delusional, but I know. One day I will get there.

Now is the perfect time to do something for the "later"

Sometimes I feel like I am tricking myself. Pushing myself too hard at work so I will be able to say "I don’t have time" for other things. Not less important. I wouldn’t change anything now but I may regret it later. Now is the perfect time to do something for the "later".

Tears of happiness

Nice people were all over today. Nice people who shared their knowledge, their kind words, and nice gestures. A day that made me look up at the sky and smile. To have tears of happiness, and a feeling of hope. I already made it.

Adjust accordingly

Do it first. The things people are waiting for. Don’t be sure it will go as planned. Be sure things will come your way. That is the only way you will be prepared to act and adjust accordingly.

I always do

When you start something new it feels like you will never get it. I used to make excuses why it's ok, to focus on the things you already know and let the others go. Now I know, it may take a while, but I will figure it out. I always do.

Start with one

As if you are talking to one. One person. The numbers don’t say anything until they buy. The followers don't mean anything but the connection does. The message, the energy, the smile you put on someone's face. It doesn’t have to be many. Start with one.

Round two

Round two. How will you know this time it will work? You will not. How will you know this time it's going to be different? you wouldn’t. But what other choices do you have?. Except for giving a chance to people who are willing to do the work.

Time off

I am not doing everything, every day. And that's ok. I am not watching television, or sitting without doing anything but I guess that's ok too. One day I will have to find some time for other things, not less important- like time off.

Push through

You can push through. You can push through when you are tired, you can push through when it gets hard. You can push through when no one believes in you. Because you do. And tomorrow is always another chance to start over.

They are out there

I was driving back to work thinking if I will ever be resilient. If it will ever stop hurting, hearing people saying I shouldn't do it. Focus on those who are next to you, those who reach out, who listen, who want to help. They are out there- And smile.

Smiling

I am smiling. I am smiling because it's working. I am getting the attention I always wanted and it feels like I have been here before. Making my dreams a reality. Reminding myself my mood should not be defined by it nor my progress. Look at it as a compliment, enjoy it and carry on. You haven’t even started yet.

My path

Every morning, when I wake up, I have that feeling. Like "who am I?" trying to do this alongside other titles like single, with an empty bank account. The surprising thing is that it fades away when I get up and by night I know- there is no other path for me than the one I am taking.

No questions asked

I started answering questions on that website because I felt I have something to contribute. I didn’t know if someone will read it -but I kept doing it anyway. Day after day, drip after drip- More are more people started reading it. It didn’t happen overnight. It happened once I decided it will be a part of my daily routine. No questions asked.

"Does it really matter?"

You will never know if you made the right call. You will never know if it was luck who brought you there or something else. You can guess or ask yourself "does it really matter?". Focus on the next move and let go of what you have already decided.

My heart and soul

A dream in a bag. I am looking at it and smiling. Knowing nothing is going to stop me. If I made it this far, I can pull it off. I don’t know who is going to wear it, but I know I put my heart and soul into it.

Scars

I am sewing it all by myself. I know I shouldn’t. but I am. Forty manufactures and no one agreed to take that job. They all say it's too complicated. So I bought the machine and I am making them by myself. Now every scar I get makes me smile. Those are scars for dreams, scars of dedication, scars of determination.

"Seems like"

It doesn’t matter if you sit on a bench instead of a fancy café. It’s with whom you are sitting. It doesn’t matter if you go for lunch by yourself – but what thoughts do you have at that moment. It doesn’t matter "what it seems like" because there is no such a thing anyway.

Enjoy it

When it blows up would you act as if it didn't? I am trying to act the same, no matter what the outcome is. Zero expectations, zero disappointments -But it's hard. Enjoy it. Knowing tomorrow will be a different story.

Think ahead.

"No money, no dream" has been my sentence for a very long time. A distraction I know is not true. Don’t let money stop your progress. Think ahead.

Welcome them

I watched myself today. Geeting nerves. Hoping it will work just the way I planned it. I told myself It might be a good sign. It means you are stepping out of your comfort zone. You are going on an adventure in unfamiliar places. And that is where growth comes from. Don’t be afraid of those days. The other way around, welcome them.

Ease

Working at ease. Working at ease makes you enjoy the process. It makes you smile, it makes you pay attention to the small details that matter the most. That's when your mind is going in other directions and new ideas are coming from.

People's game

Are you nice? Are you the person people want to work with? Do you make people around you feel good and comfortable? You may be super professional but kindness is far more important. It's a people game at the end of the day- don’t you forget it.

Moving on

I am already programmed to think that way. The schedule has changed, something got off track- I am reevaluating and moving on to the next thing. It's like autopilot. After you do it a couple of times- you learn this is what you do when that happens. No uncertainty or confusion. An action was decided before the event even happened- and it's moving on.

You might get surprised

When you start your day, you may think it's going to be a hard one, unable to see the result but you might get surprised. Maybe you are not as weak, slow, or hesitant as you used to be. Maybe now things are better because you are better.

What truly matters

"Who is it for?" I am writing an answer on a piece of paper and can't help but notice it's for me. The customer is me. The clothes are designed for the "real" me. The "me" I always wanted to be. It's me overcoming. It's me not giving up on my dreams. It's me growing up, knowing what truly matters in life.

"What if" is not going to help

How will I know If I am making the right move? I won't. The thing is, you will never know how the other path would have turned out. What would your life look like if you chose a different option, a different answer, a different path? "What if" is not going to help you anyway. keep going.

Relentless commitment

I am not trying, I am doing. Even if it is stressful, even if it means stepping out of my comfort zone. I am on it. Being in the mood or not is irrelevant. No one is "in the mood" all the time. But pushing through at those moments is a sign of your strong character and relentless commitment.

The right people

Do you care when they ask you if you spent the night at work? Do you care when they look at you like you are "crazy"? or wondering what's your story. I used to care. I still do but from the right people. Not everyone.

We wait

There will always be things you wait for. Even if you don’t what to wait. A supplier who will disappoint you, a delivery who didn’t make it on time. There will always be things out of your control that affects you. You may buy the machine, try and do the work yourself but you need to learn it's inevitable – sometimes we wait.

What is "enough" and what is your "real" job

There is always a place you should be and your not. Not in real life but in your state of mind. Too many platforms, too many tasks pulling you from your "real" job, leaving you with a feeling you're not doing enough. What is "enough" and what is your "real" job anyway.

There is always a way

I don’t have a lot at the moment but I have plenty inside my head. Plenty of ideas, plenty of goals to accomplish, plenty of dreams to fulfill. Sometimes I am wondering how can I be so sure. Sure I will get there someday. Sure I will have it all. But I am. I guess I proved to myself in the last few years- If there is a will, there is a way.

Even if you can't see

I am walking up the stairs after changing my clothes to take a picture – and I can't believe it. Four months ago it was something I knew I had to overcome but struggling. I guess it has nothing to do with the way you look or how old you are - It's about keep making even if you can't see where it is going.

Made me who I am today

I heard his voice while cutting the fabrics today. The computer was next to me, and I immediately felt better. He calms me down, educates me on the things that truly matter. How to open my heart and mind, how to think differently, how to be a better person. He doesn’t know me, but his words made me who I am today. My hero from afar.

Flip that thought

Who are you doing it for? For yourself or others?. And what about the numbers, who are they for?. Thinking about social media impact and I wonder if I can handle it. It was the hardest step I have made so far and I am sure it will get even harder. Try to flip that thought. Make it easy.

Once.

Comparing yourself to others may hold you back. Waiting for the numbers to go up will waste your time and hoping for an answer will not get you anywhere. Choose carefully where you put your mind to. You only get this moment once.

Peace

You get scared. You don’t believe it will hit you and yet you follow along. You go where everyone else is going because that is expected. It’s a scene from a movie but in real life. Everyone what’s to live in peace and yet we find it hard to manage. How come?.

A better tomorrow

Sometimes it goes as planned and sometimes it's not. The greatness comes when you stay in a positive mindset when it is not. Stying hopeful and looking forward to a better tomorrow is always better than the other way around.

Good people

I always believed there are good people in the world. People who open their hearts, time, and knowledge to others. When you meet them you may wonder "why" or ask yourself if you would do it too. But one thing I know, I will always remember I didn’t do it by myself. Behind me were good people who believed in me in worlds, actions, and without asking anytime in return.

Alone.

When you say "nothing is going to stop me" do you really mean that? How far are you willing to go for what you believe in? What sacrifices are you willing to make? I know I will get there but I hope I will not be there alone.

Not anymore

You get less scared. Less scared you will not be able to handle it, less scared you are too shy for this, less scared you don’t have a degree in fashion. My confidence comes from all the things I always wanted to know and learned. All the things I was afraid of before but did it anyway.

Lesson to be learned

I am ok. But maybe there is a lesson to be learned. In a second I could see the life I was planning for myself. It was all black. Empty. Nothing really mattered. Maybe taking time to breathe is important. It doesn’t have to be a day off. Maybe it means just to work at a different pace, to see other things but- work.

The real wealth

Being healthy. I guess that is the real game. I hope it a false alarm. I hope it's going to disappear tomorrow- but I have nothing on my mind right now. No business, no dreams, no money. But being healthy.

I will follow along

I see it. I wrote it. Everything happening to me today was written as a dream before. Here. One day I took a step forward and the next day I took another one. Now I get to see them all. knowing nothing can really stop me.

As if

You may sleep in a small room, you may shower in a tiny bathroom- but it doesn’t mean you can't dream big. Act as if your dreams have already come true. I am holding my phone, talking to guys on the other side of the world as if I already did it. Planning my next year's inventory and laughing. No limits indeed. I know I will get there.

Writing

I am writing every day and yet it’s hard writing what you feel in a paragraph. I am looking at a blank page, trying to explain how much it means to me, how does it feel being here right now. I am not sure how will you react to it, but I do know every word written there is from the bottom of my heart.

Everything is a risk

"Everything is a risk" I said to myself wondering if I should go there or not. The thing is you will never know the other outcome. No one guarantees you anything. In every aspect of life. Maybe it's a good fuel for experiments, adventures, and your well-being. Setting your mindset to something without thinking about the road not taken.

Make a room for love

I need to make a room for love. It doesn’t have to be career or love. It doesn't have to be one on the cost of the other. You can do them both. And it might even make the other better. You may be better. Lean forward. Make a room.

Luck

It's your talent, dedication, strong character, and discipline. Or maybe you were lucky. The truth is, you will never know what made you be where you are today. Maybe you would like to think a certain way. Give yourself the "right" answer. But the required question is- Does it matter?

Small room, big dream

Small room, big dream. It might be delusional to think big, but it has nothing to do with dreams. You can still dream big, think big, and be big. Bigger than life. Don’t label it, don’t ask if it's normal or not- It has nothing to do with you. Nothing lasts forever anyway, small can turn out big. Just like your dreams.

Empty tears

If you are crying over someone who doesn't care, someone who doesn’t really know you– those are empty tears. Tears being waisted. Not worth your energy nor your high intelligence. Next time, ask yourself if they are empty tears or not. And If they are, wipe them off and smile.

Forward

And I am smiling. Smiling on my way here even though my tears haven't dried yet. Because I know I am on my way. And the way is educating, challenging, and full of surprises. Among them, are connections with people miles away from me. And those are the ones who push me forward.

Persevere

A am waiting for it. A miracle, an exiting email, a phone call. But in the meantime, I will be here, working as usual. Because with or without your help or guidance- I will walk with my head held high and persevere.

Room

Who knew "space" will be my dream. A room to put my equipment, desk, and sewing machine. Nothing fancy, A small room will do the job. You know me, I will take care of the rest. One day I will have it. I know, I will have it all.

Win

"What's next?" is an exciting question. Knowing you are starting your week where everything can happen. A surprising email, a challenging assignment, a connection. You might get scared and anxious along the journey but knowing today will not look like tomorrow- is already a win.

Who you choose to become

It does matter where you grew up, what do you do for a living, or what is your family all about. The only thing that really matters is- who you choose to become.

Do it

When you don’t feel like it, do you ask yourself why until you find an answer? Do you find yourself giving the wrongs answers, saying it's ok to do it another day?. I don’t always know why I feel that way but I do know doing it anyway is the right answer.

Live

She is thankful. Thankful even when life is hard. Thankful because "it can always be worse".When will be a time to start thinking differently. Start realizing we don't live for what the neighbors might say or what a "home" should look like. Live because it can all end by tomorrow. Choose You.

Who knew

I walked up the stairs today. Same legs, diffrernt mindset. Back then it was a dream settled with the title "hobby". I remember saying to the young members of the class "I am too old to start now but you should follow your dreams". Who knew I will be brave enough to be who I always wanted to be.

It's a character

Working hard is a character. It doesn’t matter what you do, where you work, or how old you are. It's the way your mind works, the way your life evolves, and your dreams come true.

Smile

You have your schedule. You are excited about your day. You smile. You gave this mission two hours but it took your whole day. It's hard. Hard to not get mad. Hard to not think about the things you haven't done. Hard to put a smile on your face. But that is exactly why you should, smile.

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