Wednesday, June 30, 2021

Shine through

It's like we are two. Two different people living in this body. There is the one who is unstoppable, living in her own world and there is another one. Sensitive, shy, and scared. She is the one who pays attention to what society has to say. You can be both. You can cry and be resilient, be unstoppable and scared. You can feel them all and still shine through.

Tuesday, June 29, 2021

Being thankful I get to meet them

Kind people. I write about them a lot- And they show up. When they do, I can't help but wonder what a great world it is. A stranger, an angel was there last night, putting his time and effort on a side of the road, so I will be able to drive back home safely- And I couldn't sleep at night. Not wondering "why?", but being thankful I get to meet them. 

Monday, June 28, 2021

Big picture

It's my second try. My hopes, dreams, and hard work are in that box. But there is no sign it is going to work out. Those days make you question. How many tries will you give something you believe in? I can't help but look at the bigger picture, and it's beautiful.

Sunday, June 27, 2021

Dreams

We were all standing in line. Different ages, Different backgrounds, different paths. "Dreams" is a luxury word here. Most of them are surviving life. And yet, we all have them even if we don’t get to live them. 

Saturday, June 26, 2021

It is only up to you

Will you let a sentence destroy your day or will you move it aside, not letting it get through?. It doesn’t matter who said it or what was said. It is only up to you if you let it ruin your day.

Friday, June 25, 2021

Another step forward

No matter what I feel, I will be here. Sticking to my schedule for today. Not because I can't take a day off, but because it always makes me feel better. Knowing I made another step forward.

Thursday, June 24, 2021

Wednesday, June 23, 2021

Good people

Good people. When you meet them, you know. They will put a smile on your face. They will teach you. They will give you hope and encouragement without asking anything in return. They are out there, and when you meet them everything looks better. 

Tuesday, June 22, 2021

Backstage

Backstage is my happy place. Next to my sewing machine and my big table. But now I am out there. And it feels different. There's no other way, I know. I have to keep going even if feels far from the "real" me. One day it will get easier and not far from the "real" you.

Monday, June 21, 2021

Thankful

I don’t know. I don’t know if it's going to work out. I don’t know if someone would actually wear my designs but one thing I know, It makes me so happy.  And even though my legs are hurting, and I don't get enough sleep- I could be more thankful.

Sunday, June 20, 2021

Saturday, June 19, 2021

One day

I don’t know how it feels like seeing someone wear my design on the street. What it feels like shipping your work. But I know one day I will, even if it seems far away sometimes.

 

Friday, June 18, 2021

I have them with me, my ideas.

I am here, by myself. But I am not alone. I have them with me, my ideas. You may call this building "work" but for me it's pleasure. You don’t need to see me smile to notice I am happy- you need to see my work. 

Thursday, June 17, 2021

For the days you win

You can pretend. Prtend you are not tierd. Pretend your body is just fine and you are energetic as you used to be. Pretend for the days you get tears of happiness, for the days you made a huge step forward. For the days you win. 

Wednesday, June 16, 2021

One day I will get there

There are no signs it's going to work, but I am smiling. There are no guarantees but I am willing to take that risk anyway. Not only that, I am making plans for later. Call me delusional, but I know. One day I will get there.

Tuesday, June 15, 2021

Monday, June 14, 2021

Tears of happiness

Nice people were all over today. Nice people who shared their knowledge, their kind words, and nice gestures. A day that made me look up at the sky and smile. To have tears of happiness, and a feeling of hope. I already made it. 

Sunday, June 13, 2021

Adjust accordingly

Do it first. The things people are waiting for. Don’t be sure it will go as planned. Be sure things will come your way. That is the only way you will be prepared to act and adjust accordingly. 

Saturday, June 12, 2021

I always do

When you start something new it feels like you will never get it. I used to make excuses why it's ok, to focus on the things you already know and let the others go. Now I know, it may take a while, but I will figure it out. I always do.  

Friday, June 11, 2021

Start with one

As if you are talking to one. One person. The numbers don’t say anything until they buy. The followers don't mean anything but the connection does. The message, the energy, the smile you put on someone's face. It doesn’t have to be many. Start with one.

Thursday, June 10, 2021

Round two

Round two. How will you know this time it will work? You will not. How will you know this time it's going to be different? you wouldn’t. But what other choices do you have?. Except for giving a chance to people who are willing to do the work.

Wednesday, June 9, 2021

Time off

I am not doing everything, every day. And that's ok. I am not watching television, or sitting without doing anything but I guess that's ok too. One day I will have to find some time for other things, not less important- like time off.

Tuesday, June 8, 2021

Push through

You can push through. You can push through when you are tired, you can push through when it gets hard. You can push through when no one believes in you. Because you do. And tomorrow is always another chance to start over. 

Monday, June 7, 2021

They are out there

I was driving back to work thinking if I will ever be resilient. If it will ever stop hurting, hearing people saying I shouldn't do it. Focus on those who are next to you, those who reach out, who listen, who want to help. They are out there- And smile.

Sunday, June 6, 2021

Smiling

I am smiling. I am smiling because it's working. I am getting the attention I always wanted and it feels like I have been here before. Making my dreams a reality. Reminding myself my mood should not be defined by it nor my progress. Look at it as a compliment, enjoy it and carry on. You haven’t even started yet.

Saturday, June 5, 2021

My path

Every morning, when I wake up, I have that feeling. Like "who am I?" trying to do this alongside other titles like single, with an empty bank account. The surprising thing is that it fades away when I get up and by night I know- there is no other path for me than the one I am taking.

Friday, June 4, 2021

No questions asked

I started answering questions on that website because I felt I have something to contribute. I  didn’t know if someone will read it -but I kept doing it anyway. Day after day, drip after drip- More are more people started reading it. It didn’t happen overnight. It happened once I decided it will be a part of my daily routine. No questions asked. 

Thursday, June 3, 2021

"Does it really matter?"

You will never know if you made the right call. You will never know if it was luck who brought you there or something else. You can guess or ask yourself "does it really matter?". Focus on the next move and let go of what you have already decided.

Wednesday, June 2, 2021

My heart and soul

A dream in a bag. I am looking at it and smiling. Knowing nothing is going to stop me. If I made it this far, I can pull it off. I don’t know who is going to wear it, but I know I put my heart and soul into it.

Tuesday, June 1, 2021

Scars

I am sewing it all by myself. I know I shouldn’t. but I am. Forty manufactures and no one agreed to take that job. They all say it's too complicated. So I bought the machine and I am making them by myself. Now every scar I get makes me smile. Those are scars for dreams, scars of dedication, scars of determination. 
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