It's not enough. Even if you loved it, even if it made you smile I would always feel I can do it even better. Be better. Your "good enough" is comforting, it's encouraging but I know the best of me is yet to come.
Sunday, October 31, 2021
Saturday, October 30, 2021
Friday, October 29, 2021
Thursday, October 28, 2021
Wednesday, October 27, 2021
Being scared
You said the word scared a few times during this call. But
why did you? Remember that the reason you got this far, is because you went
towards the fear and not the other way around. Being scared is not a bad thing. Breath.
Tuesday, October 26, 2021
keep ongoing
Hang in there. This is not your forever, it’s just your beginning. The dirty floor and the shared table are not your destiny. One day, you will have it exactly as you imagined even if sometimes it looks so far away. Your medicine for these days, as you already know- is to keep ongoing.
Monday, October 25, 2021
The best I can.
You are scared. You don’t know how you will be able to do it all. You're already “all over” and you haven’t even started. I know I will not be able to do it all, but one thing I can promise you, I will do my best. Always.
Sunday, October 24, 2021
You already knows how it works
You already know how it works. Someone did a bad job, you had to pay for it- And you flip. Your whole day is a mess now. You are trying to breathe, to upgrade the self-talk but you are mad. You already know yourself, when money is on the table, you are losing it- But don’t. That's not the point. Moving on- Is.
Saturday, October 23, 2021
I live for those moments.
There's always the "insisting phase" when you start something new. You start optimistic, you had a few failed tries, you are trying to convince yourself you should wait for an email, a friend, a suggestion but keep trying on your own hoping you can do it by yourself- and succeed. I live for those moments.
Friday, October 22, 2021
Never forget
You are far away, in another zip code, another state. You are sending messages of support and encouragement and I can’t stop smiling. One word of kindness can change my energy, my mood, my spirit. Promise you I will never forget it, never forget you. Lucky me.
Thursday, October 21, 2021
I will be O.K.
It happens every once in a while. I get lost in my own head. Lost in past evens, lost in doubt. I keep reminding myself those days are the real test, showing you how much you really want it. And I smile. A smile, because I know I will be O.K.
Wednesday, October 20, 2021
Friendship
I went there, even though I didn't want to. I put a smile on my face even though I didn’t feel like smiling. Friendship, after all, isn't only when you “feel like it”- It’s being there especially when you don’t. Remember, It’s not always about you.
Tuesday, October 19, 2021
This too shall pass
Nothing happened but your mood is not like you want it to be. It’s “eating” you and you don’t know even why. It's making you upset because your thoughts follow it. You are trying to “fix" it but you don’t know how. Let it be, carry on, and as you already know -This too shall pass.
Monday, October 18, 2021
Friendship
She is getting married tomorrow, and I will be there looking at her with tears in my eyes. I will be there by myself, older with unclear occupation- but I will be there- because friendship is not only when you feel comfortable, but maybe the other way around.
Sunday, October 17, 2021
Don’t get confused
Don’t get confused lady. The numbers don’t mean anything. Your mood and energy should not be defined by it. You should work when the numbers are low and you should work when they are high. We already know how this game works. Keep getting better is the only thing you need to think about.
Saturday, October 16, 2021
Hope as a fuel
Sometimes I wonder how am I so optimistic. So sure I will get to do this for the rest of my life. I mean, I haven’t even started, and yet I know I will succeed. I know I will find a way. Remembering days like today- where hope is fuel to keep on going.
Friday, October 15, 2021
A great answer
No matter what I do, I always feel I could have done better. No matter how many things I checked off my list, I always feel I could add some more. It’s a good thing, it brought me here. But maybe saying “you did well today” is also a great answer.
Thursday, October 14, 2021
What about today?
Working in a quiet environment. That is all I need. Those days bring the best of me to myself and to the people around me. I don't get to have many of them but when they come, I am shining. Learning how to shine when it's a full house- Is what I need to learn. How to make my current reality, as pleasant as possible. One day it will all change, but what about today?.
Wednesday, October 13, 2021
Tuesday, October 12, 2021
Monday, October 11, 2021
Sunday, October 10, 2021
Doubt
It happens every single day when I get up in the morning. The doubt is hunting me. The unknown is sitting on my chest and it feels heavy. Lucky me it's there for a short period of time because the schedule makes it go away. Maybe one day it will disappear but until then I can handle it.
Saturday, October 9, 2021
You better do it.
You better do it. And you better start now. There is no perfect recipe for this. You will make mistakes, you will learn and you will get up and keep going. Waiting is not going to get you to the “other side”. Starting will.
Friday, October 8, 2021
From an ant to a ninja
I went back there, to the streets I know so well. I used to work there. Thinking I was an ant back then, and now I am a ninja. Nothing changed with my appearance, behavior, or bank account but with what I have inside my head. The mindset, the skills, the relentless personality. Lucky me.
Thursday, October 7, 2021
Stubborn
Being stubborn is not something new.
This is just me wanting to do it all by myself, not relying on anyone else.
It's a smart move but not always. Please ask yourself if you are not running
away from the important stuff. Trying is always more relaxing than doing the
work that truly matters.
Wednesday, October 6, 2021
Being human
Physical pain. Unexpected. And you can’t think about anything except for wishing it to go away. The senesce “the show must go on” is real- But so is being human.
Tuesday, October 5, 2021
Good side of life
It’s a FOMO of another kind. I am learning a new program, and all I can think about is the next one or the one I could learn instead. Be present. There will always be too many options to choose from. Choose, commit and be the best at it. You are already on the good side of life.
Monday, October 4, 2021
Sunday, October 3, 2021
It's all on you.
There is no one to blame for those tears. No one to blame for those feelings either. It's all on you. No one owes you anything. Could they help you? Of course. Could it make your life easier? Probably. But we already know "fair" doesn't exist. Don't wait for anyone to get you out of it. Do it yourself.
Saturday, October 2, 2021
That feeling is remarkable.
If you scroll down you could read how scared I was. Scared of putting myself out there. Making content for social media. Today I crossed half a million likes and I got emotional. Not because the numbers are high but because I kept my promise to myself. And that feeling is remarkable.
Friday, October 1, 2021
There are only 24 hours in a day. Unfortunately.
You will have things you wished you could do, things you wish you had time to learn, to explore. Good ideas you know will work but will probably never come to life. There are only 24 hours in a day. Unfortunately.
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