2023 ~ Not Perfect Perfect Blog

Sunday, December 31, 2023

Thankful.

Instead of thinking about the bad stuff that happened this year, think about the good. There is always some good. Sometimes it's just easier to see the other side. Remember you have plenty to be thankful for. Plenty.

Good day.

"Did you do any thinking today?" That's the right question you should ask yourself. If the answer is "Yes", then today was a good day.

There is no other way.

Progress is not attached to a place, table, or the people around you. Your progress is under your control. If you keep telling yourself the same story, you will get the same results. Try a different story. There is no other way.

It's all a gift.

It's all a gift. To wake up in the morning, do something you love, and have people you love around you. All of it. And if you have another day to experience it all- You already won.

Lessons learned.

You used to give it a few shots until you moved on to the "next" but not anymore. "Too many attempts"? There is no such thing, Just lessons learned.

Aim for the best.

It may be a huge step forward, but you should take it. Just don't forget to do it as if you already got the job. Be the one who always aims for the best.

"One more"

The "one more" mentality is doing you good. You can always pull off the "sick" card or the "I don't feel like it" one, but that's not going to get you anywhere. The "one more" mentality- Will.

Thinking about "what's missing" is not going to help you.

Maybe you should have done things differently. Maybe you should have been able to have your own space by now, to be brave enough to take that risk. Thinking about "what's missing" is not going to help you, but appreciating what you do have, will.

Worthy.

Are you worthy of the life given to you? Are you worthy of leaving your dream in an upside-down world?. Are you the best you can be for your family, friends, and country? These are the questions you need to ask yourself, every single day.

Over and over again.

You already know how it works. You put in the work, fail, and then try again. The next day will look the same. If it's good or bad, you keep going. That's the real dream.

Do it.

2023 wasn't your year, but don't let 2024 be the same. Do things differently, and take extra steps forward. Make some calls, fail those "big" dreams. But do it, do it all.

Better.

More is not the point, fast isn't either. Better is. Better as a human being, better at your craft, better mindset.

Everything.

Suddenly everything gets a different meaning, another point of view. When you lay in bed, have a locked door to protect you, or walk down the streets. It's all over. You can't let fear control your life but it's there.

Don't ever take it for granted.

That is your medicine, your "happy place" and your biggest obsession. Lucky you. Don't ever take it for granted.

You already won.

You will find a way. You will find ways to get better, you will find a way to "see" a few steps ahead. It may take a while, it may take a lifetime. But it doesn't really matter, you already won.

Life.

How can you feel happy and sad at the same time?. How can you feel scared and safe at the same time?. How can you feel hopeless and hopeful at the same time? I don't know, I guess that's part of life.

Foward.

You are thinking about yesterday instead of thinking about tomorrow. You are thinking about "what if" instead of looking forward. You are thinking about the bad stuff instead of the good. You better switch things up, you are wasting your time.

Better.

Try to make the smart move. Remember, "Followers" is not your job. Your job is to get better and afford a better life.

New.

You have to speed things up. You must find a way to work quickly and learn from mistakes. Try to adopt new ways of learning. New ways of thinking. New ways to master your schedule. Make sure you learn something new every day. Don't do things just because you can.

Don't think "pretty", think smart.

Maybe not today, Maybe not tomorrow but you will figure it out. You always do. Don't think "pretty", think smart.

Lean forward.

Let 2024 be the year you lean forward. Lean toward the things you are scared of the most. Treat it as a test year. Let it be a year of "testing". Remember you can always go back to the "save zone".

No words. Yet.

No one promised you it would be easy. You chose to do it because it wasn't. Stop walking backward. You can't find the words? ok. Write until you do.

A nightmare.

It feels like you are stuck. Stuck on that horrible date. The sun is shining but you are living the same day repeatedly in your head. A nightmare.

We used to call it heaven.

We used to call the weekends heaven. Working when the office was empty, was our thing. Now we can't call heaven anymore. I don't think we ever will.

"And the wheat grow again"

That's life. And death is part of it. Because the sun will rise again tomorrow and the wheat grow again.

What is a leader?

What is a leader if he can't take a stand? Is he even a leader if he keeps quiet?. You better be on the right side. The side of people who speak up.

Why?

I want to say "It will get better", I want to say "You will smile again" but I can't see it. Not yet. All I have now are tears and one question: "Why?".

Nothing.

I've been looking at this empty page for a while now and have nothing to write. Nothing to say. Nothing. All I have is tears and heartache.

No words, just tears.

I hope you have hope.

When I close my eyes, I see you. All frightened, asking yourself "How did I get here", thinking about your loved ones. I hope you have hope but I understand if you don't, I'm not sure I do either.

Only silence.

I'm mad, I'm sad and I'm not sure how we got here. A place where words can't describe your thoughts, only silence.

No words.

No words. Who knew it was even possible to wake up one day and have no words to say.

Don't let it stop you.

"Be scared. Get scared, but do it anyway. Do it with scared "sitting" next to you. It's not going anywhere but don't let it stop you.

Take that step forward. Now.

It's your call. It's your decision. You can ask for advice forever. You can look for the "perfect" spot forever. But timing is also important so you better make that move.

Doubt.

Don't go there. "There" is a place full of doubt. Why should you?. Try to stay away. Focus on the next thing on your list. Repeat. Forever.

You better make it count.

You better always remember you paid the price. All those long days, loneliness, and sacrifice. Yes, you are lucky but you also paid the price. So you better make it count.

Listen carfully.

This competition is you. You are only competing against the girl you were last week. All the other noises inside your head are voices you choose to listen to. Be careful, it's only up to you.

Next.

Live as if you already have it. Feel as if you already won. You know it's coming, so move overthinking out of the way. You will get there, you always do.

Buckle up lady, you haven't even started.

You are not doing it. "If" doesn't exist but "what's next" is. You better not ruin your future, thinking "What if"- It's irrelevant. Buckle up lady, you haven't even started.

Look up. Smile.

Look up. Smile. Imagine. Do your hands work? Does your brain produce good ideas and kind thoughts?- Then you have everything.

On the way.

Even if it feels like you are walking without getting anywhere, you're not. You better always be "on the way". The way to be better.

Make a plan.

Make a list. Make a plan. Write it down. Say it out loud. Commit. Promise yourself you will do it. Not because you "have to", but because all the things you want are on the other side.

"Easy" is not the game you want.

Stop telling yourself the same story. Make a new one. Take risks, invest that money, and follow the new "you". It's not going to be easy. But easy is not the game you want to play anyway.

A good story.

You will find a way to make it happen. You will find a way to deal with the consequences. Remember other people's stories are not your story. And you better have a good one to tell.

Where are you now?

There is nothing you can do about your past, don't waste your time thinking about the future, be here. "Breathe" the present moment.

Are you brave enough?

"If" doesn't really exist, so don't dwell. What's done is done. The question is: will you be brave enough tomorrow?.

FOR YOURSELF.

Be careful. Don't get it twisted. The only mission is to be better than you were yesterday. That is it. For who, you ask? FOR YOURSELF.

Timing.

Don’t forget about timing. Life doesn’t “wait” until you are ready. Leave all the “accessories” aside and work.

Don't go back.

Going back is not an option, even if it is. You suppose to walk forward along with the fear, the uncertainty and the risk. If you don't, it means you are not growing.

Stories.

These are all stories. Stories you tell yourself about how you see yourself. Non of really matters. The only story you need to focus on, is write a better one. Every single day.

You better do.

It doesn’t matter where you are, what matters is what you do. Remember that.

You will have it all.

You will have it. You will have it all. Don't worry, work. Working is where your magic happens. Remember that.

You can call it "another test"

Failing shouldn't be in your vocabulary. You're testing, you're learning, you're finding your way in this world. You're not at the party downstairs but your brain is the party who will get you there someday. Keep going.

"On to the next".

You disappeared for 4 years, and now you look up and smile. But don't get it twisted, the mission remains the same and it's called "on to the next".

Smile.

You’re trying. You’re moving. But most importantly you’re looking up to the sky with a smile of gratitude.

Be proud.

You already won. Do you know why? because you keep moving forward. Not prepared? but moving forward. Not "feeling it"? but moving forward. That mindset will get you to where you want eventually.

Speak up.

Do it for yourself, not because you promised but because it will do you good. It will open you to something new. And you have been dreaming about this "new" you for a very long time. Talk to one. One person out there who needs to hear it.

keep going.

Tired, sore, and stressed. Well, you signed up for it. "Easy" is not the reason you are here. keep going.

Kind people brought me here.

You. You are the reason why it's going to work. Not your location, or the open space you are working at. This story is not about "accessories", it's about who you are as a person.

Eyes of appreciation.

Same eyes, same mindset, different location. May you always look at the sky the way you do, With the eyes of appreciation.

You are more than ready!

You’re on your own now. On your own to explore, on your own to find new ways to “see” thing, to open your heart and to upgrade your craft. It’s not going to be easy, but you are more than ready for it.

You can do it!

You run. Run as if someone is going to take it away from you. If you need to pretend, do it. But you better do what you said you will.

Happy.

“It’s time for your next adventure”. No matter what happens, you were brave enough to take that step forward. That’s already a win.

Be proud of yourself.

Don't miss those opportunities to say to yourself " You did a good job". To smile when you manage to "figure it out". Stop for a while and be proud of yourself. Good ideas are the outcome of hard work, it didn't just fall in your lap.

One step after another.

You're just changing the accessories around you. Your mindset, enthusiasm, and work ethic should remain the same. One step after another, with an open heart, positivity, and a smile.

Choose to be on the right side.

There are so many things you can't control but when you do, choose to be on the right side of things. Choose to have a good mood, choose not to make a big deal out of everything, and choose to smile. That's a great recipe for a new journey.

Doing your best is the ultimate answer.

You're not making any decisions before you go. Do your best, and let the universe guide you. No pros and cons, no good or bad- Doing your best is the ultimate answer.

You already won.

Please don't lose that excitement. That smile you have when you "figure" it out and that endless feeling of gratitude. It doesn't matter how long it takes, you already won. Remember that.

Hope.

Your suitcase will contain only some of what you need or want. It will not be as organized or "planned" as you wished, but that is life. Do what you can now, and hope you will know how to navigate later. "Perfect" is not the story we are here to tell.

Fear.

You are going to take that step. You are going to make that move. You are going to do it. Fear will be by your side wherever you go, but you should do it anyway.

Run.

Run. You run. Ran as fast as you can. Run as if your life depends on it. One day you would look back and see how far you have come. Run.

No question mark.

The only sentence you need to think about is: "What if it turns out better than you ever expected?". That is it. No question mark.

Make it happen.

You have everything to make it happen. So make it happen. Think about what can go right, not what can go wrong.

Smile.

Your mood is not "you". Your mood is a faze, it's not a permanent state. Please don't let worry "eat" your happiness. You have everything to smile. Then smile.

That's the gold.

She was waiting for my coffee and I took a picture of her without her noticing. My mom. It wasn't something special and yet it is. Realizing that's gold, the mundane. That's the GOLD.

If not now, when?

Don't decide before you try. Don't say "no" before you have tried to say "yes" a few times. None of it is going to be easy but you're ready for it. You know you "haven't come this far to come this far".

Do it.

It’s your opportunity to explore. Your opportunity to meet new people, to shine, to test, to push your limits. To move to the next level. Do it (and take “scared” with you).

Every single day.

You test, you fail, you adjust- And you do it all over again. Every single day.

The next step.

Ideas are not your problem, but taking the next step- IS. You don't know how to do it, but remember you didn't know how to do what you're doing now either. You will figure it out as you go. Keep going.

Dream.

Close your eyes and dream. Dream about a better future. Dream about your dreams come true. Dream about happiness and health. Dream.

Better.

Feeling you could have "done it better" is in your genes. It's pushing you forward but also getting you to "miss" those happy moments. Remember, beating yourself up shouldn't be part of your ritual. Replace it with kindness.

Move.

You’re scared. That’s why you’re thinking about all the things that can go wrong. Change the story, image a good outcome. Remember, you already made the first move.

Smile.

Hold on. Keep pushing your limits. Keep looking at the sky with gratitude. No one promised you it will be fair, that's life. You better smile.

Bring up best.

You should stop doing it. Predicting the future. Life is about doing your best every single day as if it was your last. Period.

It's YOU

If you managed to do it here, you can do it anywhere. Remember it's not about the place, the table, or the sewing machine- It's you. And that's coming with you where ever you go.

Pick a better story.

You are not going back to the old story, you are picking a better one. A story about perseverance, dedication and hard work. A story worth fighting for.

Hope.

Think positive. Be positive. All those other thoughts are not going to help you, but hoping for the best- Will.

Good luck.

You’re going. You’re going because you promised yourself you’ll do whatever it takes. It won’t be easy, but non of it ever was.

Look ahead.

Thinking about what you could have done is not going to help you. But thinking about what you are capable of might will. Don’t dwell, look ahead. Do the work.

Life.

Think about next month. Think about new beginnings. Think about your next design. Think about the life. You will be fine.

Remember.

I hope I will remember it when it passes. I hope I'll forever remind myself you have everything when you have your health.

If you are not growing, you're going.

It's not going to be a mess-free, mistakes-free journey and it's not what you want it to be either. Because if you are not growing, you're going. Now is the time.

Maybe.

Maybe it's here to teach you a lesson, to show you what's the most important thing in life. Maybe this time, you wouldn't forget about it so quickly. Maybe you will think twice before you start complaining about something meaningless. Maybe.

Find a way.

Find a way to overcome. Find a way to keep going. Hard? well, everything worthwhile is hard. Keep going.

There is no other option anyway.

Don't worry. You will be fine. Hope for the best, and keep going. There is no other option anyway.

Trying.

Your eyes are burning, but you are here. Trying. And that is why you'll win, because you know it's all about the drops.

Now smile, great things are coming your way.

Your mouse was ready to click but you weren't. Pros and cons were running through your head but then you clicked it. You chose your dreams by clicking. Now smile, great things are coming your way. I can feel it.

There is no room for falling.

You are falling. Falling into the old story instead of living the story waiting for you. Close your eye and imagine. Imagine your life 6 months from now- And keep going. You got this.

Breath. You will be fine.

Don't google it, and don't picture the worst-case scenario. It's in your head and it's paralyzing you. Carry with you only optimistic thoughts and don't forget to breathe. You will be fine.

Winning the day is the goal.

You are not on a race. You are on a journey where winning the day is the goal. Comparing yourself to others is not going to help you, and "more" is not the point. Better is.

Will you?.

You will never feel ready to say goodbye. You will never feel your suitcase is full with all the essentials and your schedule is well prepared. You will never have it, non of it. But the question is, will you still jump?.

Do what you do best with what you have got.

You want "more". More time, more energy, more missions you can mark as accomplished for today but life doesn't go per your request. Don't forget thinking also takes time- So don't beat yourself up. Do what you do best with what you have got.

Don't look for "right", look for peaceful.

You are looking for justice, you're chewing the same story inside your head, memorizing all the reasons justifying you're right- But non of it matters. You're wasting your time, you're "killing" your energy and time goes by. Don't look for "right", look for peaceful.

It's not "if" it's "when" and you know it.

It's not "if" it's "when" and you know it. Don't let things like money and overthinking stop you. You already know how it works. You work, you fall, you overcome, you win and the next day you're doing it all over again.

For yourself and people who care.

Please remember you're doing it for yourself and the people who care. You are not doing it for the "numbers" or a "good job".And if you do, you already lost.

You will.

Take it as an adventure. Take it as an opportunity to learn. Take it as a way to get to know yourself better. You will figure it out as you go. Don't forget, your brain is coming with you.

Your call.

Don't beat yourself up. Not for a brake, not for a decision you haven't made yet, and not for another hour of sleep. It takes all the pleasure away. So if you made that call, enjoy it. Otherwise, make another call.

Be better.

Book that ticket despite the fear. It’s not about people nor it's about the studio getting smaller. It’s about the need to be better.

Your mood is your future.

Don't be that person whose behavior is dictated by their mood. You can control it. There is always another option. Chose wisely.

Keep going

"One day we'll find out you tricked us all, and you conquered the world without saying a word". I smiled. "I wish" I answered but to myself, I said, "I'm on my way". You better keep going.

Be the girl who made it "despite".

It's not going to be like this forever, so let it be a lesson. Let it make you stronger. Let it build your character. Be the girl who made it "despite".

Your responsivity.

That was your last complaining session. There is no one to blame. It's your life and your responsivity. Remember, as long as you do, you prevent yourself from a better tomorrow.

You better do it now.

You're doing the work but not the hard one. Not the one who truly matters. Don't forget you will never feel brave or ready enough, so you better do it now.

Your lesson.

You should be proud. Proud for doing it with no table, no quiet and no space. One day you will have it but until then keep going with what you have got, it’s a great lesson.

You better try harder.

You better watch what you're saying because it's the opposite of what you believe in. Nothing will change until you change the "old song". Be careful, there are words you can't take back.

“Keep going” is the ultimate key.

Don’t use it to slow down. Use it to grow, take on more responsibilities, and speak up. Use it to show others it’s not easy but “keep going” is the ultimate key.

Let it go.

Let it go. Tell yourself a diffrernt story. Make it the story you manage to overcome. Don't let it control you. Be the one who gets to decide.

Superpower.

That is your superpower. The ability to get up when you don't want to. The ability to walk towards the sewing machine even if staying in front of the computer feels better. To pretend you already won even if the road seems so far away. May you always know how to push through as you do now. That's everything.

You better be careful.

It’s your first and last time, letting your ego talk instead of you. You know better than that. Even if things were said improperly, you should never use that "ticket". It’s not like you.

Decide.

It doesn’t really matter where. Pros and cons are everywhere. Decide you will be happy wherever you go. Decide life will turn out exactly how you imagined.

Don’t try to find an answer. And if you do, it’s just an excuse.

You will find a way. It’s all a mindset. If you're doing it here, why wouldn’t you be able to do it somewhere else? Don’t try to find an answer. And if you do, it’s just an excuse.

You better move.

Are you listening? There is no room for you here. So what’s your plan?. Yes, you will find a way to “work” with nothing but why?. You deserve so much better- than act like it.

Home.

You already know it’s not the table, not the sewing machine or the mannequin you love so much. It’s you. And wherever you go, it’s with you. That is your home.

Run.

You better run. Run. Not walk, not talk- Run. You better run as if every day is your last day. It doesn’t matter where you at, or what you have- YOU RUN.

Kindness is everywhere.

Without knowing me he handed me chocolate in the middle of the street. With a smile, Without asking for anything in return. Kind people brought you here. Don’t forget it.

You already won.

You will get there and you know it. Do you know why? Because you already did. You already won. You already did the scary part. Now all you need to do is- KEEP GOING.

Stop.

Stop beating yourself up. Yes, you are slow and sometimes extra moody with no reason but thinking about it is not doing you any favor. PS- In case you haven't noticed, You are doing amazing.

You own place.

Think about the destination. You own place. Your own big table, and a brand new sewing machine. You'll have your own channel, a new routine, and maybe an upgraded mindset. It's about time. All you need is to believe in yourself (a little bit more).

Find a different story to tell yourself.

You are ruining it for yourself. You put those stories inside your head and it's distracting you. Find a different story. A better one. A story you would be proud of.

Are you learning?

You are not learning. You go, you get burned and you do it all over again. When will be the time you'll say "enough"?. When will you understand you're on your own?. Only when you do, things will get better.

You get up.

You already know how it goes. One day you succeed and the next day you fail. But there is only one thing that matters - You get up. No negotiation is needed.

That life. You're Welcome.

You're looking for the perfect deal, but there is no "perfect deal"- And you know it. You can wait and get a better deal or you can wait and stay with no deal. That life. You're Welcome.

Live in the present.

Be present, be in the moment. Thinking about the future means you're missing out.

Invest in your future self.

Are you brave enough to take the next step? to tell yourself you are capable? that you will return the investment? You better say YES. Because if the answer is no, don't expect others to believe in you.

You are moving.

You are on your way. On your way to a new start. Maybe it's going to work, maybe it's not but you're moving- And that's already a good place to be in.

Feeling vs Doing

That is how it works. You do it regardless of how you feel. Today was a great example of it. How you feel will not get you there but doing- Will.

Say nothing. Do everything.

Say nothing. Do everything. Listen. Keep the promises you made yourself. At the end of the day, the mission is to be better than you were yesterday. End of the story.

Home is where your mind is.

Decide you will be happy. Here or there. With what you have got. With what you have to give. Because home is where your mind is. And you know exactly where it is.

You will have it all.

You will find your space, you will find your person, and you will find your peace. But as long as you're getting better every day- You have everything. Keep going.

how you handle your “now” will determine where you’ll be later.

One day you will have it. Your own on your own. But remember, how you handle your “now” will determine where you’ll be later.

Be careful.

You have to stop with those crazy stories. With those worst-case scenarios, it's not like you. It's taking the present from you. Your health is the most important thing, be careful.

And as long as you have it- You have everything.

You feel like you don't have a home, but you do. Your mind, your ability to turn what you see in your dreams into reality- That's your home. And as long as you have it, you have everything.

Build it.

Built it. Build the narrative. Build a story you will be proud of. Be the version you look up to. You already started so you better make sure you stick to it.

You are moving.

You are moving. You moving even though you're not sure. Even if you're afraid to feel alone. You are moving because it's the smart thing to do. Then be brave, and do it.

You can do it.

When you close your eyes do you see it?. If the answer is "yes" then you have nothing to worry about. Keep believing. Keep investing time in your skills. Become better every day. And the rest will follow.

Winning is "more fun than fun".

Ask that extra question. Save your time, your energy, and your day. Walking around is always fun, but winning is "more fun than fun".

Happy.

Happy. Not tomorrow, today. It’s your call. Your standerts. Your reality. No permission needed.

It’s hard- And you are here for it.

This is exactly why it’s working. It’s hard- And you are here for it. Sometimes you are running away for it, but as long as you know that is where great ideas come from- You’re good.

Weird is not a bad thing, it just means you chose a different path.

It's weird but it's part of it. Not long ago, everything was "weird". But weird is not a bad thing, it just means you chose a different path.

We are here for the hard work.

Sometimes you need to find a hack. A hack that will stop you from running away from the things you are scared off. Today it worked, and at the of the day it wasn’t that scary. Remember, we are here for the hard work, not running away from it.

"Aggressive In skill acquisition"

To be "Aggressive in skill acquisition", that’s is your mission. That’s your goal. Please make sure you never forget it.

You better pay attention.

None of it is going to help you. You can get mad, and you can ask a million times "Why?".But none of it going to help you. It's doing exactly the opposite. You better pay attention.

Don't ask why.

You keep asking "Why?" but that's none of your business and it's distracting you. You keep looking at the sky with gratitude. You keep pushing. You keep making your dreams your reality. That is it.

You better move.

You can't call it "work", but it's a hobby. And you know it. It's been a "hobby" for way too long. You are doing something wrong. You better move.

work.

Not if, but when. Look at the bigger picture. You haven't got this far "just" to go this far. WORK.

Believing.

He saved you. He whispered the right answer and you listened. At first, you even thought you made the wrong decision but today you found out it was all for the best. Listen to your instincts, knowing you have someone watching you from above. Showing you, you are not alone. Keep going.

Money.

You have a problem with money. And as long as you have that problem, you will lose. Lose friendships, lose your business and lose your piece of mind. Think about the bigger picture.

Move.

You have to stop. You have to make a decision. Remember, not making a decision is a bad decision. No one promises you it will all be here when you decide to make your move. Than move.

Overcoming

You will feel this way from time to time. Feeling confused and overwhelmed. Feeling angry for not doing enough or making the wrong decisions. Welcome, that’s called life. But remember, overcoming is the real deal.

You should.

You will do it. You will try. You will explore. You will fail but never ask the question "What if". Because you tried it. You tried it all.

Decisions

You have made a decision. Not making any decisions is also a decision, but you are not there. You are moving forward. Chose the "wrong" one? thinking about it is not going to help me, but moving on will.

"Extra"

The "extra" is what brought you here. The "extra" time when you couldn't stand. The extra tests when you felt like giving up. The weekend, the observation, the listening. Always make room for some "extra", this is where the magic happens.

You are already living your dreams.

The ideas you have are not connected to the table you are sitting at. Your ideas will follow you wherever you go. Decide it will be for the better. Decide you will be happy no matter what. Remember, you are already living your dreams.

Be scared and do it anyway.

He said you have two options. Option number one is taking two steps forward and option number two is taking four steps forward, so why not take four?”. The answer is very obvious, I am scared. Also me: "Be scared and do it anyway".

You haven’t even started yet.

You are not tired. It’s not brain fog. Those are just excises. You are strong. Your brain keeps surprising you, and your hands keep following along. Get into your beast mood lady, you haven’t even started yet.

Thank you.

Whenever you can say thank you, say it. Say it because they earned it, because they deserve to know. Say it because you would want to hear you matter too. Thank you.

Forever greatful.

“Are you going back to Microsoft?” she asked. And I smiled. One table, two sewing machines, 4 years, and over 100 million views, and yet, no one here knows what I have accomplished during that time. But I do. And that will forever stay with me.

You are doing it to grow. Remember that.

You should be proud. For not running away from the challenge. For not settling for “good enough”, for not leaning on something you did before. You are doing it to grow. Remember that.

Be present.

Relax, non of it truly matter. Don’t waste your time predicting the future. Be present. Stay calm. And talk about the things that matter.

Now.

Not tomorrow, not "when you will have money". Now. Maximize your now. Be happy with what you have now. That is what makes you rich.

Thank her.

You should thank her. Thank her for being an example of what you don’t want to be. Thank her for being the reason you are leaving and starting a new journey. Maybe without her, you wouldn’t make that leap. Thank her.

"Home"

It's a year. It's close. It's not a marriage, it's four walls. It's a bath. It's a space for you to think quietly, to have privacy. To feel like you can be yourself, every hour of the day. It's not a home. Home is your mind, the way you think, and that will go with you wherever you will go.

Stopping is not an option anymore.

You have to stay focused. Follow your list, and take out from your vocabulary the sentence "you don't have to" because you do. You already made a commitment. You already manage to follow it. Stopping is not an option anymore.

You are already rich.

I saw them, my little brother and sister under the bridge, waiting for me to pick them up. And I told myself, that’s happiness. Looking at people you love. Having them in your life is what makes you rich. Note to self.

Don't be scard.

You can think about it but until you do, you may be scared for nothing. Do it, and then be scared. Not the other way around.

Make that move.

Don't find reason way you shouldn't. Find reasons why you should. Why "Paying the price" will be worth it. Don't wonder if you will "feel" at home, decide you will. You already knows how it works, so you better make that move.

You have to fight it.

You have to fight it. Fight the urge to say “you don’t have to”, because you do. Not only because people are watching but because you owe it to yourself.

Get up.

You are scared, and you found a new hack. You learned to hide under the “I don’t feel good” excuse. That’s not going to take the “scared” away. Scared means you’re in progress, it means you’re are on the right track. Get up.

A better tomorrow.

Not beating yourself up for not doing it. Not beating yourself up for not doing more, or what you should have done. None of it will help you in going to help you with your main goal- A better tomorrow.

Change it.

Change it. Change this ongoing tune. Nothing will change if you keep telling yourself the same things. You are an adult. Take responsibility and change the "music" - It will all fall in place once you do that.

Lucky you.

On day one you say to yourself "You will never get it" but one foot in front of the other, and you get it. Lucky you, there are no excuses to way not. The world is ready to teach you anything you want.

Winning.

You already won, even if your bank account doesn't show it. You won because your brain does get better every day. You won because you mastered the skill of learning new things, of stepping out of bed even when you don't feel like it. Winning is not about the numbers, it's who you have become.

Testing is the goal.

Testing is the goal. Not repeated work, not something you can give someone else to copy for you. Sitting next to your sewing machine and testing new ideas peacefully. That's the dream.

You need to pick.

It's hard. You are thinking too hard. You had an idea, a good one. But selling it is a whole different story. You wrote the steps a million times now and yet you can find the "perfect" way to make it. Maybe there is no perfect way. But you do need to pick one. Beath. You will learn as you go.

My hero.

Every time I write to her, I get emotional. Sitting in her class was the thing that ever happened to me. Maybe one day I will be brave enough to share with her that the world is watching me. But until then, I will thank her twice a year for changing my life for the better.

You will find what you are looking for.

You will find what you are looking for. If you are looking for kindness, you will find it. If you are looking for bad energy, you will find it. If you think you can "make it", you would. You already have proof it's working.

Decide.

Make a decision. Yes, it may be the wrong one. But it's not permanent. It's for a year. You are not buying a house, you are renting a few walls for a year. Decide it's going to be good, decide you will be happy there. And the rest will follow.

Do it.

You have to wake up. Take a piece of paper and write all the things you are scared of. Write all the things you will regret not doing 5 years from now. And do it. Not "just do it", but do it. Do it with intent. Do it with pleasure. Decide great things will come.

Move.

It will push you, it will shake you a little. You have to take that step. You have to believe you will thrive there. And if you tell it yourself, you will.

There is no “safe” way anyway.

I need to make a decision. I have my pros and cons on paper in front of me but I can’t make up my mind. I know not doing anything is also a decision, but it’s not the one I want. It’s all risky. You are here to live a risky life. There is no “safe” way anyway.

Lesson learned.

Learning what you don’t want to be like is also an important lesson. She bumped into my car but instead of saying “I’m sorry” she chose to say “believe me, I care about my car more than I care about yours”. I didn’t say anything. I was proud of myself, for that. But I do know, what I will never become.

Smile.

That smile you have. That excitement you get when you “figure it out”, it’s yours to keep. No phone call, email, or the “usual” sentence can take it away from you. And if it does, it’s on you.

Your real home is what you have inside your head.

You don’t need to feel a connection. You are paying for temporary walls. It’s not yours and it's not forever. You may call it your “home” for a while but your real home is what you have inside your head.

Thank you.

I almost missed it. Missed an opportunity to say thank you. To tell you, you have been more than a teacher to me 20 years ago. But I did it. I stopped you in the middle of the street and said thank you. One word that made both of our days completely different.

You are stronger than this.

You are pulling yourself down. And the right direction is up. What's done is done. Don't let it break your spirit. Don't let it take your smile. Make a decision, and move on. You are stronger than this.

Find a way.

Find a way. Find a way to make you heal. Find a way to stop focusing on what's distracting you so much. I don't have any guidelines for you, I just know you will find a way. And the sooner the better.

Your call, your thoughts, your reality.

You feel stuck? find a way to get you to unstack. You feel unhappy? find a way to be happy. It's all on you. Your call, your thoughts, your reality.

You need to make a decision and it better be the scary one.

You need to make that move. No "thinking about it" is required. You did some "resting", and now you need to make a decision (and it better be the scary one).

You haven't even started yet.

You can't let your fears hold you back. "Anxiety" is not the answer. You better take a deep breath and look at the bigger picture. You haven't even started yet.

Relax.

This is not anxiety. You are not tired either. This is you putting unnecessary thoughts inside your head for nothing. No need to beat yourself up. Take a day off. Relax. Master the art of doing nothing. You are your own boss, and you are doing great.

Repeat.

Cheer up. You already know how it works. You fail, you get up. You keep going. You get better. Repeat.

It's worth it. It already is.

One day your Saturdays would look different. But it all depends on what you do with the Saturdays you have now. It may feel “the same” but it’s not. Look up. Smile. It will all be worth it. It already is.

Wanting to be better.

Any time you start a new garment you should ask yourself if you learned something new. If you had to test a few ways of sewing to get "there". If you complained it was too "hard". You are not "just" doing it, but wanting to be better.

Speak up.

Speak up. Tell your story. Not when you get "there", but now. Now when you are struggling, when you can't really "see" it. Don't do it for yourself, do it for others.

That's on you.

It's not about the fabric you are using to make those gloves. It's about your learning abilities, your failures, and your perseverance. You decide on a fair price and stick to it. That's on you.

Now is the time.

Now is the time. My heart is open, and I want you by my side. I'll wait until you'll find me (or I'll find you) but please don't take too long.

It’s just noise.

It’s just noise. It’s just a table. You are not the things around you, you are not the place you go to every day nor the same as the people around you. You are your kind thoughts, your skill, and your perseverance. One day the accessories around you will change but don’t forget you already have the gold.

Living the dream.

Every morning start with “you don’t have to”. With the same tune inside your head saying “who do you think you are?”. But then you get up, you do “the work” and you realize you actually living the dream.

The gold is in the making.

Your ideas are your gold. If you share them or not, the gold is in the making. Some of them make take a while, but as long as you challenge yourself, it means you are on the right track. All the other work is extra.

Thinking is your job

Looking outside the window, staring at the mannequin feels like you're not working but you are. That is where you get your ideas from. You maybe feel like you’re cheating "your list". But without it, there will be no list.

Doing it “despite”.

I’m holding her in a bag. Million people watched her. And even though it's easier to walk around town knowing you already got a stamp from the "world", it still feels like you have a lot to overcome. It may take a while, and it may stay like this forever but as long as you doing it “despite”, you are on the right track.

You better make it count.

Don’t save it for later. Not a good piece of clothing or your great idea. Now is the perfect time to focus on the “better”. "You don’t get to live tomorrow again, so you better make it count".

At the end of the day, we are all the same.

It has nothing to do with the amount of money you have or what you do for a living. If you are not on the people's side, you are not my person. At the end of the day, we are all the same.

You will find a way.

You will find it. Find a way to make it happen. You will make mistakes along the way but you already know mistakes brought you here. Not only your successes.

Make sure you do it all “despite”.

If you're letting it get in your way. Turn it around. Make sure you do it all “despite”. That you are looking at your advantages and not "what's missing". As long as you have enough space inside your brain- You have everything.

Don't you ever forget it.

"One day I will be able to afford it," I said. And he answered, "I know you will". We have never met before, but this act of kindness, a sentence, made my day. Don't ever forget, people, kind people are the once who brought you here.

The world is looking at you. Smile.

Wipe those tears. It’s a waste of your time lady. It’s not going to help you. But you know what will? staying focus. All the necessary equipment you have inside your head. And if you need something to cheer you up, check out your phone. The world is looking at you. Smile.

Look how far you have come.

You are looking for a room. A small room to keep making. Not something big, just a room to put your sewing machine and a big table. You see that room when your eyes are closed but in real life, you don't have it yet. Please, don't let it steal your joy. You will get there eventually. In the meantime, look how far you have come.

You can still call it your heaven.

It’s a new table. A smaller one, but it's still me. All the things that brought me here, are here too. You will find a way to make it work. Hang in there. You can still call it as you always did- Your heaven.

Listen to your instincts.

You got scared, that happens. But beating yourself up for the lost time and money is not going to help you. Learning for next time will. Listen to your instincts, today they "saved" you.

Make sure you never forget it.

Share it. Share it with those who deserve it. With those who work hard, and "pay" the price. “Pay it forward,” he said. Make sure you never forget it.

Brave enough

“If you believe in yourself, and you want to do it more than anything else. You should do it”. I wrote that 3 years ago, not knowing if I’ll ever be brave enough to keep going. Now I am reading it, hoping to be brave enough to win.

All the rest is inside your head.

Stay calm. Stay driven. Stay humble. Remember you don’t need much. A table, a sewing machine, and a clear mind. All the rest is inside your head.

We are all the same.

Get excited. Get emotional. You earned it. And please don't ever let it be any different. Be kind, be generous, and never stop listening. We are all human beings before we are anything else.

Conquer.

It will never be empty. And you should be grateful for it. It means you're growing. It means improvement is being made, even if feels like your list is a never-ending battle. Don't wish for it to slow down, wish for having the power to conquer it.

I have it all inside my head.

I used to come here when I was a teenager. It feels like it was “yesterday” but it wasn’t. I'm sitting at the same table, but I am not the same person. My work ethic is what brought me here. Now I know, I have it all inside my head.

You got this.

You have to make that move. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow. But the sooner the better. Great things will come and you know it. Don't let fear hold you back, you got this.

My table.

I see him, my table. He’s someone else’s table now. I wish he was mine again. I wish I had my old spot, exactly just the way it was. But, decide great things will come out of your difficult situation. Decide overcoming is your mantra. And hang in there.

You need them both.

It's ok to have days like these too. When your mind is running but your body can't push through. There is nothing to be mad about. The mind is not the only one you need, be careful. It's a game of both.

You will get there. Keep going.

Hang in there, you are almost there. In the meantime, you can close your eyes and imagine, how it would feel like to have your own space. Your own on your own. It’s not going to take long but even if it is, don’t worry. You will get there. Keep going.

The “ordinary”.

Don’t forget those are the things that make you thrive. The small things you fix during the day, sitting at the quiet sewing machine spot, the “ordinary”. May you always feel excited about the “ordinary”, it means you are on the right track.

Don’t stand still.

Don’t stand still. Don’t find excuses to slow down. You have been waiting for this your whole life. But don't forget to speak up, to share, to show them what real life really looks like. You can do it.

Part of the game.

You always give yourself a deadline to make a decision, but lately, you get stuck. You don’t have any pros and cons, not enough information or knowledge to make a decision. But the thing is, it’s part of the game. Knowing you need to make a decision, even if the road you are taking is not familiar at all.

Real life.

Behind those numbers, there are people. And it doesn’t matter how old they are or where they come from, what matter is that you show them real life. The real you. But not at every cost.

Get ready.

Don’t expect they will cheer for you. Don’t expect you will be able to keep it a secret forever either. So get ready. Have an explanation in mind. Not the one people want to hear, but the one who’s true to you.

Kind people.

You can be happy. You can smile, you deserve it. But always remember, kind people brought you here. You did do it all by yourself.

It’s a problem solving game.

You are still here, with no table but sewing machine. No energy, but drive. It’s a problem solving game, and you are not bad at it. You just need to remind yourself the things that truly matter. PS cutting fabric in your car while people are watching means you will be just fine.

Saying "NO".

How do you say "no" to an opportunity like this?. A chance, you have been waiting for, for so long. On the other hand, you have a responsibility, and you better stand behind your words. Please note, You will never know how the alternative would have turned out, but you do need to make a decision.

It’s not “just for fun”.

It’s not “just for fun”. It’s not just clothes. It’s a responsibility. It’s trust. It’s showing up even if today you don’t feel like it. Remember, we are not here to spam people, But to empower them.

Every day has its own color.

Don't ever estimate the mundane. The "usual". The "same" walk to the fabric, the smile you get when you find a way to fix it. Nothing is the same, even if it seems like it. Every day has its own color. Make it count.

Same place, different table.

Same place, different table. I'm scared, so I'm attaching my craft to its location. I know it's just an excuse to stay with what is familiar. But walking away would be the smart one.

Actions.

Walking with ease. Regardless of where you are going or with whom. For so long I was struggling, wondering who is going to see me, and what they might think. Now I don't wonder no more. Now I feel the wind on my face. I look at the sky and feel comfterable where ever I am. My actions brought me here. Thankful.

Growing.

Maybe you are just scared. Scared to start something new. Meet new people, adjust to a new reality. But that is how we grow, so look for it instead of running away from if.

Grateful.

He said, “don’t get attached to places”. He’s right. I know I shouldn’t, I have it all inside my head. My skills, my thought, my hands- They are not staying here, they're coming along, where ever I'll be. Grateful.

Opportunity

“It’s just another day” is a dangerous sentence. It means you live on neutral. No day is “just another day”. Every day is an opportunity to start. An opportunity to learn. An opportunity to become better than you were yesterday.

“Happiness window”

3 years, 2 sewing machines, and one big table. This will be my last Saturday in the place I call home. When I came here I didn’t know how to sew a zipper, and now I am leaving feeling I had done what I never imagined was possible. I'm leaving with a smile. With a feeling of gratitude. Knowing I will have a “happiness window” wherever I go (even if it will be much smaller).

Life worth living.

He talked about making bread. And his eyes and heart were in his words. I couldn’t stop smiling, standing outside his store. That's a life worth living.

Close your eyes and imagine.

Close your eyes and imagine it. Imagine it exactly how you imagined all of this. It may take a little bit longer, but it will happen. Your own, on your own. Wipe those tears, and keep going. You already know you are on your way there.

You get to decide.

Take it with you. That mood, that sparks in your eyes. Changing scenery doesn’t mean it will all fall apart. Maybe it will turn out exactly the opposite. You get to decide.

You will not stop. Not even for a moment.

You need that push. And you know it. No matter what it would look like, you will be fine. It may not be easy, and it will probably hurt. But one thing is for sure, You will not stop. Not even for a moment.

Gratitude.

No matter how many stories you tell yourself. That is all you have got at the moment and with that, you need to work your magic. Crying is not going to help you, being sad wouldn’t do it either. The only thing you can do is replace it with gratitude. And work even harder.

Feeling of gratitude.

This will probably be the last thing I will do on my big table. I'm holding my tears, trying to change them with a feeling of gratitude. You may have a storage issue for your physical belongings, but inside your brain, you have plenty of storage. Breath.

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